Saying goodbye hasn’t always been easy for me. But it wasn’t particularly difficult this time because I’ve only been here for almost 3 weeks, less than a month.
Today, I wrote an email to tender my resignation. Would love to do it face to face but he was not around.
He called me and my last day’s tomorrow.
I didn’t have to inform the rest because somehow someone knew and then everyone knew. A few were shocked because I didn’t told them anything. And I didn’t expect them to know it this way. I thought once I get a reply from him, I’d tell the rest but then it happened in another way.
They asked me why I wanted to quit. And I had to answer them with a few of them around. So, I just told them I didn’t find the job suitable for me. I said I don’t think I did a good job and won’t be able to do my best in doing this.
“I also don’t think this job suits you. Cannot imagine you doing this.” A colleague commented.
“But I think you’re doing fine! You learn things fast. At least you do. We’ve had people who knows how to do it but refuses to do it.” One of my colleague said.
I told her my heart’s not here.
And I always like it if I can do my best. It doesn’t matter if doing my best does not appear best to others. So long I know I’ve done my best, it satisfies me. And at the end of the day, what matters most to me is job satisfaction. That is a lovely little feeling that is capable of keeping me alive.
Hopefully, it’s not too far away.