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I am hard to read.

That is why I need to write so that it’s easier to read myself.

I may be interpreted this way today.

And I may be interpreted a different way yesterday.

Tomorrow you may find that the interpretation you have about me is different than what you’ve come to know today and yesterday.

I can be very happy today.

I can be very sad tomorrow.

I may sound like I’m positive but I’m just scared deep down inside, but just writing positively in hope that it would help to overcome the fear.

I may sound like I’m crazy and I’m really crazy.

Whenever I read something inspiring or watch something inspiring, I’m reminded that my grind at work is really nothing to compared to.

But when I’m at work and I read stories about people dying from overworking, it becomes not very inspiring anymore.

I’ve always had this dream I would like to pursue. It’s not that hard, really. But whenever I’m about to kick-start myself to delve in it, I will then present myself with all the fears that is not true unless proven right. It is so bad, it has been going on for years. I guess I’m just afraid to fail. So I’d rather choose to do something else…and even if I fail, I won’t feel so bad.

But watching a movie 2 days ago made me realise maybe I should just listen to my heart and ignore what my head has got to tell me. Please go watch “Look For a Star” starring Andy Lau and Shu Qi. Nothing at all related to the dream I want to pursue..I’m just merely borrowing the concept. I find it meaningful and very real. Gives you a warm and fuzzy feeling at the end of the movie. I’m just thinking you will definitely like it.