Category: Life

This is disgusting but I want to write about it.

I was driving half way when suddenly, the stomach was playing an orchestra and there was a tornado. I needed to go to the toilet….very badly.

I started to pray for the traffic light to turn green, for the traffic light to stay green, for the car in front of me to go faster because I need to get to the toilet immediately!!!

I came home, parked the car. RAN up to the house. DASHED into the toilet. And KAH BOOM! No time to even close the toilet door but it’s okay because no one’s home except for me.

After the tornado has subsided and the orchestra has got no more song to play, I walked out to meet the man.

Today he wore a light pink long sleeve striped shirt. ;))

Pappy and I were walking to our dinner place in One Utama and I bumped into a poster saying there’s a new Japanese restaurant. So I told Pappy, “Let’s go!”

SUSHIGROOVE is a very unique Japanese restaurant. It looked more like a bar to me because it’s darker than any other normal Japanese restaurant. You will love the small plates or what you call…side dishes. It’s just one of a kind. I didn’t really enjoy the Tori Chicken rice that I had but that aside, everything was good.

Came back home to watch Dreamgirls. The Sony player just wouldn’t read the last quarter of it a few days ago which left me feeling frustrated because I was already towards the end of the movie. Pappy bought a new DVD player yesterday. Cheaper and has a brand that I don’t know of…but it doesn’t really matter to me so long as it plays the DVDs.

So, I managed to watch Dreamgirls right to the very end and I love it very much. I think Beyonce is pretty. Jennifer Hudson has got a very powerful voice and the songs…I love them.

It has been a week since I last saw him.

Last year, the driver who took us around while we were in Bali said, “We Malaysians like to use the word “pusing pusing” to say “Please take me around Bali”.

At first, he didn’t know why we would want to go pusing because pusing actually meant something else. Spin. Pusing pusing = head spinning. Means…pening. So he thought we wanted him to make our heads spin.

So funny!

Anyway, my head really spinned today. I left work feeling dizzy ( I wouldn’t want to go in length of what happened) and I had to focus on my one hour drive from Cyberjaya to Kepong. I actually love how my car is cruising on the road, after the scheduled car service. Costs a bomb. Changed to a new battery because I sensed something was wrong, the car acting like it has a sorethroat. Service guy confirmed that battery is weak…so better changed it before I get stranded somewhere alone …in the dark.

Reached dinner place and had to sit down and try to make head stop spinning while listening to Pappy arguing with his friend during dinner. Sometimes I think arguing is his hobby, especially when it’s accompanied with beer. And I totally hate when it happens and when I have to sit through it.

End of rant.

This has got nothing to do with the story above.

I WANT TO HUG HIM!

Not writing long tonight because I’ve just upgraded to the latest WordPress Version 2.2 also known as Getz. Named after a tenor saxophonist. Getz…is also the name of my car.

🙂

Gracie, please learn to be more vocal.

You can do so much better in things that you are afraid of doing or trying. You are too self-concious and you got to break away from that. Stop playing Ms.Very Nice, in which you want to please everyone. And if you think you failed to please everyone, it’s okay. That’s reality. That’s normal. Because you can’t please everyone. Just do your best and the rest will take its on course.

I know I’ve told you this for so many times, Gracie.

But it’s okay, sometimes we need to be reminded from time to time. Because sometimes we tend to forget.

Have more confidence in yourself.

Love,
The Lovely You

I was asked to organise a tea party for the monthly birthday celebration at work. Nothing extravagant, just a simple get-together. I had no heart to say no and I thought it would do me some good. But then I doubt I’ll be organising the next one, considering the amount of unnecessary stress I’ve built for myself.

And seeing that a colleague will be leaving and last day being today, I thought of bidding him farewell too so it was a birthday and farewell party. It was meant to be a surprise.

Now let me tell you why I have supernatural powers to stress myself. I was thinking about what cake to get and I had to be really careful because the budget allocated is limited, same applies to other stuff like food and presents.

I haven’t been able to sleep well for the past few nights and I’m not kidding. I’ve been waking up at 2am for the past two nights. I don’t know what the hell is wrong with me waking up in the middle of the night and the first thing I think about is the party, the gift, the cake, how I am going to do it, will it be okay?, what if it’s not a success, what if I failed to make it a good one? I tell you, those questions and those things kept spinning inside my head. Monday night, I only slept at 4am, after being awake for 2 hours just thinking about all these things which I could actually think during the day, not when it’s time to sleep.

Not to burden you with the details, I’ll just tell you how the party went today.

There were several occasions where the surprise almost leaked out. I know sometimes it’s hard to keep it a secret when you don’t really realise the person you want to surprise is just next to you. For the whole day, I was trying hard to keep it as a secret. It was a little tough because the birthday girl was sitting beside me. The guy who’s leaving is sitting quite close too.

Had to sneak in the cake and all.

The secret or so-called surprise was so well-kept until it became a reverse surprise. Instead of us surprising the guy, he surprised us instead. In fact, he almost gave me a heart attack.

Party was to start at about 4….but this guy suddenly packed his bags at 3 and I saw him saying goodbye to this fellow team mates and I was thinking. Oh shit.

I’m not sure if his team mates are aware that we are going to have a farewell party because they didn’t seem to be doing anything to at least make him stay. But they are aware lah. I mean I have practically announced it to the whole department. TWICE.

The guy then came out from the room and said bye to the girls outside, me included. I wasn’t looking at him because I was staring very seriously and in a very shocked and panic mode at my MSN chat window with another colleague.

“OH MY GOD. HE’S LEAVING”

That was what I typed.

I didn’t want to say goodbye to him yet because I didn’t want him to leave. We still have got a party. For him…and also for her. So we cannot do it without them around.

I turned around to see two colleagues looking at me with a panic look too but there isn’t much that I can say because I still dyingly wanted to keep it a secret and a surprise….since the birthday girl who is sitting next to me can listen to our every word.

I could only murmur something and gave them an assured look that I’m going to take immediate action.

The guy then went into the boss’s room. And my boss didn’t even make him stay. I was like….Oh shit man.

The guy then began walking towards the door to leave the office. Me…I walked as fast as I could and then ended up running out to catch him at the door. I talked to him outside.

“Can you please don’t leave yet?”

Suddenly, I felt like I’m a girl so much in love and begging the guy not to leave her. Ah ha ha.

Okay, back to reality…

He asked why and I had to tell him why. No more surprise. *sigh*

“Do my team mates know that there will be a party?”

“Yes, they do know.”

“Why didn’t they tell me or make me stay?”

He asked a very good question, in which I wanted to ask them so much myself. I didn’t know how to answer him. I just said I don’t know.

Anyway, I made him stay but his walk back from the door to his desk, may have been a little embarassing. Imagine you walking out the door, thinking that you are a free man, and to be called in by someone and you got to turn back again. Very potong steam!

The party went on fine. I’m glad it’s over. Because I know I finally can sleep tonight.

I am wearing my new white shoes as of writing this. Ya I know. I’m crazy.

It’s a little tight now since it’s new. It’s the expandable kind as you wear it longer. So, I just wanted to help expand it before I wear it tomorrow to a seminar…with Pappy.

A seminar in which I know nothing about..and Pappy says I might not even understand a thing about it.  But I’ve got to be there because Pappy needs company. My dad…he can be really manja at times. So, being a daughter, I cannot refuse his request even though, really, deep down inside, I just feel like not to be there tomorrow. I’m still talking myself into removing that bad thought and should just attend the seminar tomorrow with a positive attitude.

Mummy is supposed to be the one accompanying him. Because Pappy paid for himself and his spouse.

“So, Pa, I’m going to be your spouse tomorrow is it?” I asked him.

“Yes!”

So tomorrow I’m going to try to be a really good spouse even though I know I don’t look like one.

The seminar will continue into a dinner and I have no idea if it’s going to be a grand one, a normal one. I asked Pappy and he has no idea and so I have no idea of what I’ll be wearing tomorrow. I shall take it as tomorrow comes.

Now, I need to get some sleep because I watched television with him till 12:30am. Very happy but also very tired.

But of course, happiness overweighs the tiredness. But even so, I still need to sleep!

*hick*

Today my horoscope reads…
The time has come to make some tough decisions. Much as you'd like to be able to do what you must and keep certain rather selfish individuals happy, that isn't possible. Compromise and not only could you undermine your position, they're unlikely to appreciate it.

I think it is trying to tell me something.

Anyway..

Went to work and it was a lovely, rainy and cooling morning. What made it even lovelier was when my buddy colleague, (Buddy colleague means more than just a colleague, like a buddy. Who say? I say one.) said, “Grace, you look so cute today. Lady in blue.”

“Thank you” *senyum sipu-sipu*

Was still feeling a little restless but it wasn’t as bad as yesterday. I took Patch from colleague’s desk and put him back on top of my computer where it belongs.

At 11am, I suddenly thought about HEROES which will be shown tonight at 9pm. Can’t wait! So I kept telling myself to continue with my work and I’ll be rewarded to watch television tonight. Oh, and there’s American Idol before that! And before all of that, I’ll be buying food and milk and bread.

I went to buy food and all as planned and when I wanted to start the car to go home, it just wouldn’t start on the first try, not even the second, not even the third. I tried to start the car longer the 4th time and the engine started to run.

I don’t know if I’ll face the same problem tomorrow morning but I’ll tell you. So you see, when you have a car, you have got a lot more to take care of. The service is due soon and the road tax is expiring soon too. Gah!

Then, you’ve got to worry if someone will suddenly come knock your car. Like this morning, one Toyota Unser tried to cut into my lane. We were both driving quite fast and he wanted to cut in when my car is going at the same speed as he is and my door is next to his door. I mean…can’t you see I’m just beside you? Yet, he’s cutting in like I don’t exist.

I blared the horn.

He suddenly woke up and swerved back into his lane.

Just before leaving the office, a colleague asked what time I’m leaving. Then he said he’ll follow me. I thought he was just joking.

But when I was stopping at the traffic light, I saw his car behind me. I was like…….

His car went out of sight when he made his way to “Lorong Tunai” while I made my way to “Lorong Touch n Go”. Life in the fast lane.

End of story.

Oh wait, the other crazy thing I did today was I went up to the colleague sitting next to me and said, “I love you. Bye bye!”

She was laughing and asked what happened to me.

Maybe because I have been wanting to hear these 3 words.

And for the whole day today, I feel that my desk is vibrating even though it’s not. It’s like the phone is vibrating but it’s not. So you have no idea how many times I looked at my phone just to see nothing.

And while I was relating my story to a friend, tears welled up in my eyes. But it’s not the pouring kind. Just one tear on each side which I rubbed off before it even drip down.

Sometimes I feel that I’m not going to go on like that forever. Because I know I’ll get tired and eventually get very mad. I’m mad but not very mad yet. But maybe this would do me good. Maybe I’ll eventually fall out of love with him when the time comes.

Today I was feeling a bit bored and restless at work, I started moving Patch’s legs. Patch is the name of the dog sitting above my computer. The legs are moveable so I can either make it stand, prowl, fly, or make it stand like it’s peeing or pooping. Then, I placed it on the desk of my colleague next to me, with Patch looking at her.

Then, I felt like I needed some love so I took the sweater hanging over the back of my chair and placed it on my lap. Imagining it as my blanket. And that’s not enough, I actually took the sweater and I was smelling it. I can’t believe I did that in the office.

Tomorrow’s work is going to be a tad dry so I’m going to wear something nice to perk myself up.