Run, Bunny. Run!

快乐不快乐？

// June 30th, 2009 // No Comments » // Life

I’m happy and I’m also not happy today.

I’m not going to give up just yet. Message was clearly conveyed but was not fully accepted.

Maybe I should focos on the happy stuff today because I’ve got one more door opened…and I want to walk into that door.

Gay

// June 29th, 2009 // No Comments » // Life

Hello!

I think I saw 2 gay dogs yesterday after dinner. Was walking back to the car with a friend and I saw 2 dogs. They are not very cute as in the puppy kind of cute but I had wanted to say cute because the two of them were like so friendly, walking and standing close to each other. Very loving like that lor.

Suddenly, one of them started climbing up on the other dog and “do” it. I was like, “Whoa!”

Then there were guys working inside a shop that saw it and was so happy enjoying the scene.

It was a very quick one so when the other dog who was up stood on the ground again, I saw both dogs have what a male dog should have so…the first thing that came to my mind, ”I didn’t know a dog can be gay too.”

Anyway, it may or may not be gay. Maybe just practising his skills with a trusted friend. Not doing in but appears like he’s doing it. Maybe it was just pure illusion.

That’s yesterday’s story.

Today…I feel the need to express about something I feel strongly tomorrow. It’s been in my head and my heart for weeks already and it’s really not going anywhere unless I am being vocal about it. May or may not get what I expect to get but at least I should try in getting the message across. At least, I know I’ve tried to fight for it and it’s better than sitting down whining and expecting people to read my mind.

Quite excited and look forward to that actually because I’ve always been the kind that silently accepts, always agreeable but I really think for this time, I cannot continue to dwell in this. I need to do something for myself before I sulk further and become unhappy because I can already see the symptoms. My facial expression is not as cute anymore and I certainly do not want to look grumpy.

I need courage!

Do, or do not, there is no try.  – Yoda

You First!

// June 26th, 2009 // No Comments » // Life

Don’t you just hate it that you know he’s not there but you keep restoring your MSN window to see if he’s there?

And when you see him there, you keep guessing if he’ll talk to you first?

Then, you really can’t stand the wait anymore but you still resist yourself from making that first move.

Then, I said to myself, “SCREW THE RULES!”

TALK TO HIM!!!

Billie Jean

// June 26th, 2009 // No Comments » // Life

Everyone was talking about it and it felt like I was the last to know. And that I’ve not really been reading news.

When I heard of the news, I was like, “Uh..ok”. Still didn’t quite believe it and was trying to register in my mind that Michael Jackson has passed away.

I still wasn’t feeling anything because I was too busy trying to figure out the work emails I was reading. It was until I was driving home from work that I switched to HITZ.FM (because I have been listening to purely ONE.FM for more than a week) and they were playing solely MJ’s songs. CNN was also reporting the news for the whole day and I learnt a new term today, cardiac arrest.

So I tore open a packet of junk food and tuned into BBC because CNN was showing Business news, trying to get more information and I’m now listening to Billie Jean.

May you rest in peace.

Happiness Is…#44

// June 25th, 2009 // 1 Comment » // Happiness Is...

Today I ordered a regular beef bowl but was given a large beef bowl for the price of a regular bowl.

The staff wasn’t aware that he was packing my beef bowl rice with a larger box until the cashier pointed it out to him that he should have used the smaller box.

“Tak pe lah”, the cashier told him and she handed me the plastic bag with my yummy beef rice.

I wasn’t looking into the plastic bag but I was feeling the size of the box with my hands. It was until I reached home and took out the box that I knew, it was a large one. Hehe. I was feeling fuller than ever because of more rice and more beef.

Thank you Yoshinoya!

RM29

// June 24th, 2009 // 5 Comments » // Life

I’ve been thinking about something for the past few days. Anyway, when am I not thinking, right? Duh. I think ALL the time. ALL.

This is something new. I was offered something but I wasn’t sure if I should take it. It sounds new, challenging and exciting. Requires time and effort. I don’t really know how much time it would take and I don’t think I’ll know unless I dip myself into that. So it’s either dip or no dip. I’m the kind of person who would automatically say yes when offered something if it’s a favour to help someone and if it is within my means or I would make myself into thinking that I can handle it even though I’m actually doubting while accepting the offer to help.

Then, I take one step back and really thought about it. The pros and cons. I didn’t want to blow away an opportunity but I also didn’t want to overload myself. My principle has always been about work and life balance.

Even after deciding that it’s going to be a  ”No”, I still feel somewhat guilty because back in my head, I do not want to be thinking if I’ve let an opportunity slip by but I have to be realistic too that one can only do so much. I do not want to land myself in a situation where I have so much to do but I can’t really focus or excel in it anymore. I rather have few but I will get the job done exceptionally well. People are happy, I am happy.

So, in writing this down, I hope I can put a closure to this. Whatever that’s going to happen, this is going to be my decision and it’s made based on the current circumstances.

Okay, that’s one thing.

I came home and found RM29 scattered on the staircase while getting up to my house. At first, I saw RM2 so I ignored it then I saw RM 5 and RM 10 notes lying on the staircase too. Man, why do people not want money? Haha. It’s so pitiful to see those money lying there so I brought them home. I’m still thinking of what to do with it. Hahaha.

Someone accompanied me to have dinner after work today. It was nice to have company and more often than not, I’m posed with this question a lot lately, “Don’t you feel bored?” Because they know I come home to no one and I’m my only source of entertainment. It’ll be a lie to say I don’t feel bored at all. For the past week, I’ve been singing a lot. The best place to go is Youtube.com. Get a music video with lyrics and just sing. It helps to sing out your sorrows.

Like last night, I was still enjoying the songs I discovered from my ancient hard disk drive that survived the test of time (haha) and sang too. Danced too. Like I was moving from the room to the kitchen and then back to the room.

Highlight of the day: Mr.Lizard is back. He appeared in my room and I looked at it and asked him WHY. I think it heard me. It went out of the room. This morning, it was hiding at the back of the bowl. I ask him why but it wasn’t moving so I gave it grace period. When I came back to the kitchen after a while, it was gone. Please do not come back to haunt me. Thank you.

Hapiness Is…#43

// June 23rd, 2009 // 1 Comment » // Happiness Is...

having emachines EL1800 as a new boyfriend.