There was a dog this morning, running around a bush. Running towards and over the bush. And it keeps repeating the whole process. I cannot see what it is actually chasing. This happened at the divider next to a very busy road.
That’s like the only interesting thing that happened today.
tata!
Woke up at 8 to have breakfast with Pappy.
Then, I had to accompany to meet a friend of his, for some money-earning opportunity. His friend was late and I was sitting there waiting, while reading The Sunday Star till I got so sleepy! His friend came but he spoke so softly that I couldn’t even hear what they were talking about. Or maybe…I was too focused on reading the papers. But then again, it was a really silent conversation.
Like whispering….
hello hello. can u hear me? keke
Helped Pappy to carry his luggage downstairs while waited for the taxi to come. Wanted to send Pappy to the airport but he doesn’t allow me to.
“It’s too far”, he said.
But then you know, that’s how far I drive to work every morning.
Slept on the sofa after seeing Pappy off. Just 30 minutes but it did magic.
After that, it was laundry, throwing things away, vacuuming, mopping, laundry, changing bed sheets, washing the toilet, throwing more things away. You have no idea how much expired food I have in the house. Some are stuff from the previous Chinese New Year, things you get in a hamper and you think you’ll going to eat them. But you end up not eating them.
Survived a day without him calling me. Don’t know when I can see him again.
It’s time for bed and I have to work my ass off tomorrow.
It speaks for itself.
Pappy was asking me what is the latest phone in the market. If you ask me, I don’t know. But I do know, of late, there’s this Nokia advertisement in the cinema. So I just told Pappy it’s Nokia 6300.
We went for movie last week and that Nokia ad was shown again.
“Is this the one?” He asked.
The other day, Pappy went to collect his phone at the Nokia Service Centre and he asked me which one is it that was shown in the advertisement we saw in the cinema. I pointed and showed him that phone model at the display.
And today…he came back with a new Nokia 6300. JUST FOR ME!
I wasn’t expecting him to buy one for me and if I had known, I would have stopped him from buying it for me. My Nokia 3230 is still workable and I love it. Actually, it kind of resembles Nokia 6300, just that 6300 is a little slimmer and looks sleek. And to date, I’ve never actually own a phone, as in paying with my own money. Which is why, I didn’t want Pappy to get me one because I’m a big girl already.
Well, I think I’m in love with this new 6300 too.
Pappy, he’s got 2 phones. Same number, different communication service provider, same phone model, different colour. One is white. One is pink. Yeah, pink! I still don’t understand why he needs two phones.
My pappy can be quite cute sometimes. At the front dashboard of my car, used to sit a toy frog which head came off due to the burning hot sun. Pappy didn’t like the sight of it. He threw it away and he said, “Bye bye” to the frog. I would have done the same thing too. I mean saying byebye.
“Grace, I’ll get you a dog.”
I thought and I thought.
“Pa, don’t need. I have a dog.”
Which explains why Patrick, the red dog is accompanying me in the car and he travels with me at least 76 kilometres per day. Not bad for a toy dog. keke
Anyway, I wanted to watch Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (TMNT) in the cinema with Pappy but he’s busy and he’s flying off tomorrow. He’s getting busier and busier. It was Pappy who introduced me to this TMNT thingy. I still remember the time when Pappy would bring Mummy, Iris and I to the now defunct, Rex Cinema in Sandakan to watch the ninja turtles. Pappy’s favourite character is the rat, Splinter. Hamato Yoshi.
There was this hype of the Ninja Turtles back then and Pappy bought me a t-shirt with a big Raphael on it. I didn’t display any affection towards the ninja turtles to the point where Pappy had to get me a t-shirt but since he got that t-shirt for me, it became one of my favourite t-shirts back then.
It felt like… Heroes in a half-shell. Turtle power!
I think I have a few more visitors than usual. So this is a hello from me to you! :-h
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On my way to work, saw a 6-car accident at the curve when you exit to Cyberjaya. Yes, it’s 6 cars. All kissing one another.
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Sometimes, I like my sister because we can talk like this..
Ham Hammy!
Hammy!
How are you oh?
Ok ler but not so good also. As hoping that I can talk to you. I have been in a weird mood lately.
Why are you in a weird mood?
I think it’s a combination of being away from home, miss the comfort of home and also because worried about exams.
And then you know lah, my close friends are not here. Over here I’ve got no friends who I can fully open up to or feel really comfortable with. So I feel very lonely lor.
You must focus on your exam and tell yourself we are going to bring you comfort in July.
Yalor, that’s what I’m trying to do. Hehehehe.
If you are lonely, you look at Foo Foo and think of me. Foo Foo can fly at night one. So she will fly and whisper to Ducky. Then Ducky will tell me lor.
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Happy Good Friday! If I were to be in Sandakan today, it would have been a public holiday for me. Anyone knows why Good Friday is a public holiday in Sabah and Sarawak but not in West Malaysia?
There was no cat today.
But someone greeted me a hearty “HI GRACE!” before I entered the office.
I liked it very much.
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Mum called and it has become a daily thing now. Sometimes I feel that Mum is more worried of me than my sister who’s studying overseas, despite me being nearer to home and being in Malaysia. And despite me being the elder one. If there were to be a day when I don’t send her an SMS or give her a call. She would say, “Grace, why you never update me today?”
So today’s news update goes something like this..
“Grace, are you in love?”
“No. Why? Do I sound like I’m in love?”
“Aiyo. Nobody wants you, is it? When are you going to be in love? Can you find a better guy? Where do we find a better guy anyway?”
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You know even if I’m in love now, I feel that it’s very hard to break the news. Do you love who you want to love? Or do you love who you think your parents would love?
I’ve always loved who I want to love but not as of late as I grow older. I don’t know why. Maybe it’s the pressure that I get though it isn’t really obvious that my parents are giving me some of them. I can just feel it. You know how parents would interrogate you, which I think is normal and a right thing to do. But what if the answer that I give isn’t what they expect from me?
Of course, there have been times where they do not like the answer that they’re getting and when that happens, I always try to stand by my man. And sometimes, it’s just not easy.
One of the more often mentioned “requirement” that they would prefer to see in someone I would be with is someone who comes from a good family background. It’s easy to say and easy to do if you fall in love with someone after you get to know the whole family history or probably get to meet the whole family. But not all of us fall in love in that sequence.
And I think it isn’t fair to label someone as bad just because he/she comes from a broken family. More often than not, it’s not the choice of him/her to come from a broken family. But you know..sometimes it’s hard to change my parent’s mind. But then again, if it ever happen to me that I choose to be with someone whom my parents think he comes from not a very good family background, I will stand by my man.
Am I a bad daughter?
Perhaps, it’s not really hard to stand by your man. What is hard is finding someone who would walk that path with you and at the same time, stands by you.
Came to work, parked the car, got out of the car and found a white+black cat standing behind a car, two cars away from mine. The first thing that came to my mind was…the cat shares the same colour as me. I was wearing a black skirt with a white+black stripe long-sleeve shirt. You can call me Zebra if you ever see me wear that.
Then, we went out for lunch and the cat was still there, licking its fur.
Had lunch at Old Town Kopitiam, Cyberjaya. I’ve never been here before. Quite nice. I think it’s quite romantic at night. With the wooden architecture, fish pond..and maybe dim lights. I’ve never eaten here at night so I was allowing my imagination wander off a bit while I was finishing my nasi lemak.
Came back from lunch. Cat IS still there. This time, sleeping. I liked its sleeping position. So cute.
It rained heavily in the evening and the sprinkler above me was working again. (There’s a hole in the ceiling above my cubicle.) This time, I went straight to report it to my manager because the other manager seems a little deaf to me, given the fact that it has been made known to him, say twice? Sometimes you need people of a higher management level to get people of a high management level to get things done. Me, the small fly, is often treated as invisible.
I mean, who can work with water dripping on your desk? And you got to sit to the left most so that you don’t get “hit” by the water?
Went off and had dinner with a colleague. And by the time I wanted to head home, heard from the traffic report on the radio that LDP was flooded? Taman Megah part? I drove all the way to Puchong, before making an exit to Shah Alam. Not that I know where it would bring me but I just didn’t want to get stuck in a jam. But it does sound like I prefer to get lost, doesn’t it? I don’t know what made me decide to take another route but it was a risk taken there lor. I mean one siao cha bor, don’t know the way, raining, dark and yet wants to take on a new route.
I just followed the sign that says Klang/Ipoh/Subang Airport, hoping it would connect me to NKVE and exit at the Damansara toll. There was one part where I didn’t know which lane to take. Most of the cars were on the right lane. Left was without anyone and before I knew it, I saw a sign that says Cyberjaya/Putrajaya. So, I thought this time I’m going to go back to where I came from again. But somehow, there wasn’t any sign that says Cyberjaya/Putrajaya after that, and I keep seeing Ipoh/Subang Airport, so I thought I think I might still be on the right track.
But before I came to that part, during that curve I was taking after the Cyberjaya/Putrajaya sign, there was a tow car on the opposite side of the road. So, I was looking at it thinking there’s an accident. And as I was still driving along the curve, I found another tow car on the lane that I was on, but there wasn’t any accident also. Then, I saw two more tow cars and I thought this is not funny anymore. And it’s so bloody dangerous for them to just park along the curve since there is no emergency lane so if they were to park there, they are obstructing traffic from the left lane. And if you are driving rather fast on the left lane and you suddenly see tow cars obstructing your way, you either brake like mad or swerve to the right lane when there’s no car. Possibility = accident since it was dark, quiet and raining.
Maybe that’s what they are waiting for. So taking a new route today did OPENED up my eyes a little and lesson learnt: drive a little slower while you’re driving along a curve at night, on a rainy day.
Then, I saw Carlsberg and then what seemed like the Shah Alam Stadium. Then, as I went on, the surrounding was beginning to look familiar to me. And I know I’m not lost. No traffic jam along the way, only got stuck 10 minutes at the Damansara exit because I was queueing up on the Smart Tag lane when I could have just get out of the queue and head straight to Touch n’Go. Cannot see because so many cars piling up in front of me. Took Kayu Ara shortcut as soon as I got out of the Damansara exit. So happy. Reached home after an hour or so.
Someone came and we both went out for dinner. Yes, I had dinner twice today. I was so full that I was telling myself I do not have to eat tomorrow.
I don’t know why I’m happy when I see him. Not like he’s very handsome or what. More so, he is a bad guy. I don’t know why I call him bad. Maybe because I’ve never had a friend like that. His world and mine is totally different. Our background is totally different too but the one thing that I like about him is that he makes me feel right even though I know he’s a bad guy. Oh My God, how should I explain this?
Okay, let me put it this way, he’s just not the kind of guy I envisioned myself to be with, to even like, to even feel happy with. Each time I tell myself to just get rid of him from my mind but tak boleh. Because he always does something that other people won’t do to me.
For example, he can drive from his house to the shop lot outside of my place. I can see the rows of shop lots from my house so..yeah. He will park his car and then get out of his car. Give me a call on my mobile phone and asks me to go to the kitchen where I can see him from the kitchen window. Then, both of us will stand talking while seeing each other from far. I cannot see his face but I can only recognise his body figure admidst the dim light…since he always like to call late at night.
This is one of his recent stunts. He has got some previous stunts some years back. I’ll see if I want to write about it. But for now, I’m just going to tell you this stunt.
And I don’t know whether to describe it as a romantic act…but it somehow has a way to my heart. Can die!!! I tell you, can die!!!
Of course, when it first happened, I thought he was crazy and out of his mind. He did it a few more times and I begin to feel that it can be somewhat sweet. There was once when he was really having a bad time and he was really down and moody and devastated and all the bad things you can think of. He called from there but I was very cold-hearted that night. I spoke coldly, I think I was angry of him, because of the way he is. He’s just not the kind of guy whom you feel secure to be with. I always have this feeling like I can just lose him anytime.
But I know he was really feeling down that night but even knowing it, I was still very cruel and cold-hearted. Sometimes, it makes you wonder why someone would do that you know? Till that night, he sounded like he was about to cry and he said this one line that is still clearly etched in my mind.
“Grace, I like the sense of security you give me.” ??????????????
Sometimes, I think I’m on drugs when I would peer out of the kitchen window, wondering if he’s going to be out there.
I think…this is an incurable disease.
Had dinner with Pappy at a Japanese restaurant in Damansara Jaya – Omitsu Koshi. I miss this place a lot because I haven’t been here for a very very very very long time. I love this place. Good food and reasonable price.
Yesterday, I had roti canai for breakfast. Though the roti wasn’t as crispy but it did satisfy my hunger for roti canai. I haven’t had roti canai for a very very very very very long time. So, it tasted heavenly with that glass of teh tarik. I always stick to roti canai or what you call roti kosong. I hardly ever order other kinds of roti, like roti telur or roti bawang. Maybe why I like roti canai is because it’s simple.
Then, two days ago, I suddenly felt like drinking milk. Otherwise, affectionately known as “nen nen”. Don’t you think “nen nen” describes the word “milk” aptly?
Nen nen.
Nen nen.
I want my nen nen.
Actually hor, I miss those days when Iris and I would pull out a mattress from out of nowhere and place it in front of the television. Then both of us will lie down on the mattress, watch the television while holding on tight to our milk bottles. So nice.
Nen nen…
Hokay!
A friend was telling me how troublesome it is now to read my entries, especially older ones because you got to click on the entry title twice just to read that entry because it only shows the summary of the entry and not everything. I’ve fixed that so now you can just click on the daily entries link once and read everything. You know what I’m talking about? Cos I’ve got a feeling that you don’t. keke
The one thing that I still can’t make it work is the “previous and next” link at the bottom of this blog. The code is there but it doesn’t appear and I just don’t know why. But I’m going to find out why but I’m not sure how long that would take. My archives page is not working so I’ve taken that out and hope to get it up and running again.
The images doesn’t work the same in IE and Firefox. I insert an image with width of 490px and appears fine in IE but not in Firefox…it appears smaller, like a thumbnail of the original image. WHY? I don’t know also but I AM going to find out. But that would take time, considering that I have a life and cannot spend too much time debugging in front of the computer (because I would rather spend the time to write given the choice and that I spend a hell lot of time in front of the computer at work so I think I could do with a little more human touch after work) and which explains why I’m not a programmer by profession. Actually, I’m in awe with people who can program, develop software, write codes. Sometimes I wonder how their brains are being wired.
So, Grace? Why are you inviting trouble when you could have just settled with your old theme? I want a new theme to refresh myself. You know I met with an accident and that I suddenly bumped into this theme which wasn’t purple by default, it was olive green but it was pretty that I fell in love with it….that I was willing to purplify it, no matter what it takes. And once I’ve decided to move on, I cannot re-activate my old theme.
At least that’s how I would want things to be…except that there is one thing that happened recently doesn’t really match my statement. And I’ve a feeling now that you don’t know what I’m mumbling about. tee hee hee
Anyway, have a great week ahead! April’s here. :d
