Category: Life

Love this song!

…is the song I’m listening to right now. It will be on my playlist for a while. It’s a soundtrack from the Korean series – Bread, Love and Dreams, I’m watching currently. Love this series to bits. Just watched 2 episodes and I’ve got 4 more to go before I finish the whole series. So very tempted to continue watching but I’m restraining myself, else I will not be sleeping.

I finally have my me-time to myself now. Everyone’s in the house is asleep. It’s just me, the song and the computer. It’s been awhile since I have this kind of me-time. Parents are here and work never stops flowing in. I hardly get to see my sister too because she is as equally busy, perhaps even busier. There are days where I’ll be awake before her and then I”ll be asleep before she gets home. Some days she’ll leave the house earlier in the morning while I’m still asleep. Just on Sunday, she told me we’ve not had a one-to-one session for quite some time. I would say a month because I was overseas and then we’ve both been busy since I came back.

Lately, I have a kind of dreamy feeling. Sometimes I find myself smiling to myself, for no particular reason. It feels like I’m in love but then there’s no one that I’m seeing, let alone love. And if I go deeper within, I feel the desire to love someone really badly. Weird but true.

It’s been a month.

I still want to write about my trip to the US but I have not been able to find time. The only time I have now is to write about today and I have a dying feeling to write tonight. I will definitely, will, MUST, write about my trip to the US but tonight I’m just going to write as normal…a post summary would be good.

I have been busy since I came back but I’m enjoying being busy. I feel different after coming back. Feel a little grown up. It is one of the most memorable trips so far that I have. Firstly is because I flew alone so far by myself. The feeling of reaching your final destination safely is a very good feeling indeed. Secondly, I’m glad that I made the decision to extend the trip personally even though I know I had no company at the point of time the decision was made. I think I had a couple of sleepless nights to thinking and deciding if I should extend my trip. Thirdly, the feeling of reaching home after 3 weeks being abroad is nice too. I’m going to tell you I love Malaysia even more now. Maybe I’m just homesick but there are things you’ll come to appreciate, despite it flaws. You’ll even come to love the bad thing about it because that’s what makes Malaysia.

There’s also one thing that I noticed that there are lots of pretty ladies around in this city of ours. I like to do people watching and have enjoyed watching people the past week or so. I know it’s weird to make it sound like there are not pretty ladies elsewhere or I was at the wrong place but really lor, I’ve been seeing a lot of pretty people lately and it has been awhile since I see a lot of pretty ladies around so it got me into realising this.

I know I’d be smiling if I was stuck in a traffic jam on the day I was back because I know getting stuck in a jam means I’m back home.

I had to meet up with my friends. Not seeing them for about a month makes me feel so sick. haha.

I love being able to drive again.

There’s one more thing I’m very eager to do. To catch a movie in the CINEMA. Aiyoh, I cannot imagine not going for more than a month now!

I’m glad I’m home but I think I’m addicted to travelling. I want to go on another holiday again. That will have to wait till next year.

I think this entry is too long to fit into my iPhone screen, hence part 2.

After getting my visa, 10 years multiple entries. 🙂 I walked back to Ampang Park, took the LRT back to KLCC and finally felt so relieved.

Oh one more thing was that while I was driving earlier, someone called me to get my birth date to book for a flight which will auto cancel by 3 pm if it’s not confirmed. I was driving so I didn’t sense the phone call. when I parked and saw the phone it was already 2.55pm. My heart raced like shit. Returned call immediately and got the tickets issued.

I came back home after that and still had to catch up on my work.

Lesson learnt: always have at least 2 umbrellas in the car. If one fails you, there’s always another one waiting to serve you.

Writing this as I’m waiting for the guys to fix my car brake lights.

This week is definitely not the kind of routine week I’m having.

I had quite a dramatic Tuesday. I was out collecting my visa. Drove my way there on a new road I’ve never taken. Managed to find the location only to find that the car park is full. Great!

I made a u-turn and parked at the next open space car park I can find. It was drizzling by then but it was fine as I had my umbrella with me.

The moment I opened my umbrella, it showed me its true colours. A branch of steels jotting out at my face. Fantastic!
It was raining more heavily then as if my situation wasn’t bad enough. No way that I can walk in the rain.

The next thing I had in mind was to make another u-turn to get to KLCC. I see parking now. Made my way to Guardian which was conveniently located above where I parked. Got myself a light PURPLE umbrella and then quickly walked to the LRT station to get to ampang park. Walked to the building and I was still in time, albeit 30 minutes late from my target time.

Afte

2 main things today. I was ecstatic during the day, sleepy and tired in the afternoon, exhausted and disappointed in the evening and now that it’s night, I just want to let everything sink in and accept things as they are.

I’m lucky to get my visa application approved today. The guys before me was treated quite nastily if you asked me. I would have felt humiliated and intimidated if I was being questioned like that. When it was my turn, it ended in less than 5 minutes and the officer didn’t even look at one of my supporting documents.

I was all happy until I was informed that I had to fly earlier than scheduled. I will not explain why because it will only drive me mad again.

I’m consoling myself that if I fly earlier, I would have more time to adjust from my jet lag.

I need a good night’s sleep to cure me now.

I’m in a bit of a mess. There is a lot that I’m thinking, I found myself wondering about the many situations, visioning the many possible scenarios, picturing how I would like things to turn out and unfold. This is something out of the daily routine I’m going through and it’s going to be quite an experience and adventure for me. I’m very excited and thrilled and at the same time worried. It was more of worrying at the beginning but as I get to do more research on my own, I have better knowledge of things and so the worrying part is decreasing.

I also found myself going through some of the same details 3 or 5 times. Planning the perfect itinerary. Reading, reading and reading every free time that I get.

I’ve not been cooking the entire week because there are too many things running through my mind and I’m just not capable of churning out meals when my mind is so heavy. My Japanese potato salad is very overdue. Hah! I’m only starting to clear my laundry, fold the clothes and iron them today.

Tomorrow I need to be more productive as this will be my last weekend before I travel. It is going to be a crucial week for me and I need to manage my time very wisely. Declutter myself. Turn back to the original Grace and just move forward.

I believe everything happens for a reason. The period when I have been staying alone, getting used to eating alone, going out alone, doing things alone and being alone…those are not that bad at all. I have learnt to be comfortable when being alone. The only challenge now is to take that and apply it in a different location, a new location which at first is very intimidating but I guess it’s just going to be the same. Maybe a little frightening the first day or two but I should be fine thereafter.

I want to be fine.

And now some sleep!

These 2 words are giving me a headache right now, in fact it has been about a week or so. I have this heavy feeling just thinking about it. I feel very uncomfortable. I’m due to fly next Saturday but I’m still stuck being in the waiting list. Aside harassing the agent from time to time, I don’t know what else I can do.

I cannot think straight and I keep telling myself that if it’s on the waiting list, it’s not something I can control so I should just stop worrying about something I don’t have control over. BUT THEN I CANNOT TREAT IT LIKE NOTHING EVER HAPPENED. I STILL NEED TO FLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

i.am.so.stressed.

I’m praying everyday, every hour when I think of it that I’ll get a clearance soon.

Oh Dear God, please bring me good news tomorrow!

Went to have my eyes checked as I have been left with no choice but to get my spectacles replaced as it is not supporting me with the correct power since few years ago. Plus, I’ll be travelling soon and will be on the plane for more than 20 hours. I can’t be wearing my contact lens.

Reason why I never really get to get my eyes examined is because of fear. I have such high power, it not only scares me, it scares the others as well.

My power has increased after the test as expected and it has now hit 1100 and 1250 respectively. Certain contact lens brand has maximum of 900 only, so I have no choice but to switch to another brand that caters to 1200 and it’s double the price of my usual brand. My new specs cost a bomb too. I went for a really basic and cheap frame to make up for the high cost of my lenses. Pains me.

LASIK is ringing in my head but the earliest I’ll get that done is next year if I have enough funds and once my braces is off. That is if my eyes are suitable for such treatment.

I went to 2 optical shop. The first one told me my eyes are not stable and ask me to come back tomorrow. I didn’t like it and wanted a second opinion. I went to a smaller shop and the lady that tested my eyes was so patient and detailed. It wasn’t because my eyes were not stable but the eye strength was weaker on the left eye. 眼力 wasn’t good and the nearest translation I can get is eye strength, whatever that means.

She was kind enough to give me a pair of contact lens for free, to let me try out the increased power. And it looks like I’m going to have to buy because I can really see better with this contact lens. Buying a half year supply of contact lens and a pair of specs is costing me almost RM1k. Pains me even more.

I can only console myself that it’s a necessity and I need to take good care of my eyes.

People out there with no eye sight problems at all. I envy you because you guys are just so lucky!