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It’s Jay Chou on my playlist tonight.

Doubled my crunches from 20 to 40 this morning. Rasa mahu mati. Haha. Because my legs are also aching from the swimming I had last night. This is what happens when I don’t exercise often.

Received a letter that gave me another heartache. Thinking it has been solved but I don’t know why it’s back now. Made a few phone calls but I still can’t get a definite answer yet so I’ve got to wait. Lesson learnt again and again. NEVER EVER BORROW YOUR NAME TO SOMEONE FOR SOMETHING YOU DON’T OWN…NO MATTER HOW CLOSE, not even when he says he can die for you or he will love you forever. I’ve not forgiven myself yet for being so kind-hearted. I’ve learnt this lesson very well but even though I’m not repeating it ever again, I’ve got some shit to clean. One small shit which I think I can clear in due time. One big shit which is more complicated.

The good side of things…maybe it’s a good thing it is happening now and not later in life. Not like I’m very young but I think I still have the life to deal with it.

It’s Friday again tomorrow. I’m thinking of green tea ice cream with cornflakes. 🙂

I’m such a darling today!

I did my sit-up (only 20 times though) after waking up and can only stop till 20 because I’m starting to feel the pain and was running late. Tomorrow I shall increase the numbers. Cleared up some work today and I’m very pleased. Came home and went swimming. 5 laps and I was feeling tired already. There was a girl who was there earlier than me, she was already swimming non-stop like she’s never out of breath while I took 3 breaks in between the 5 laps. When I left, she was still swimming like she’s never out of breath. I’m impressed!

Cooked because it was just me tonight. I just made do with whatever I have. Leftover soup, added some vegetables and mee sua and I call it dinner.

Because I was such a darling today, I rewarded myself 2 episodes of “Bread, Love and Dreams”. Love, love, loving it!

I liked my day very much. Hope you did too.

Just got back from a very painful yet enjoyable foot and body massage. I had my dose of “gua sha”  (刮痧) too so my whole back from the neck to the waist is dark red in colour. It looks like I just got back from a kungfu fight! YAH!!!

I’m so going to have a good night’s sleep tonight.

I like my day off. I didn’t do any office-related work which was good. I thought about it though but quickly pushed it out of my mind.

Went to the management office, paid my bills, went to buy vegetables, went to get toiletries, surf information on yoga and I like the Yoga Journal. Loads of information so I think I’m going to pick a pose and slowly master it. I tried the “Child Pose” today. Cooked dinner: Steamed fish, Stir fry four-angle beans and carrot & sweet corn soup. This time soup is with too much water so the taste isn’t as strong and thick.

When I pick something to learn and grow on, I think I feel better and it keeps my mind off the dangerous zone, into thinking the unnecessary. So at home, it’s going to be learning yoga and cooking. At work, it’ll be learning whatever I need to learn and above all, just to be more confident.

I’m all ready to go to work tomorrow. Yee-ha!!! 😀

Watched Despicable Me today. Liked it a lot! So cute!

Had a belated birthday lunch today and it was nice. Had a belated dinner a few days ago too. Thank you! 🙂

Finally bought a yoga mat today after years of thinking of getting one. This time is because my tummy is growing at an alarming rate. It’s because of eating and no exercise and a lot of sitting in the office. So I thought sometimes I’m lazy to go swim or sometimes it’s too late to go swim then there’s still an option to do sit ups at home or learn to do yoga at home.

Cooking is still in the plan. It isn’t that difficult actually. Once I get used to it, it will be easy to do and will not find it as a chore. I made myself long cabbage + carrot + meat ball + tang hoon soup yesterday. Had two big bowls of it and feeling so contented. I really like soup a lot.

Tomorrow’s a day off for me. I have not had a holiday since CNY and I thought I should get one. Just a day to recharge, run some errands, get a body massage maybe, learn yoga, or maybe swim and then cook and enjoy some TV.

My balcony was in a mess because I have plants that have been left unattended so it’s all dried up and dying and some dead long ago. There is also a mysterious twig lying in the balcony and I have no idea how it got there. Threw the dead plants away, revived the dying ones and today one of it stood proud.

I’m thinking about lots of things too. Like how I woke up and find myself dreaming about a crush I had in high school. Until now whenever I see him, which is quite rare, maybe once in 2 years or if I’m lucky once a year, I still have that crushy feeling. He is like the perfect guy though in reality I’m not sure since I’ve not really get along with him and never gotten a chance to really communicate or anything of that sort. I guess it will remain like that forever and I will always have a crush. We all used to have a crush towards someone, don’t we?

I’m also imagining how my future house will be like. I have a desire to own a place and make it mine, whether or not if I’ll share it with my future boyfriend/husband. This one is a bit challenging though.

I also have plans to further my studies. I’ve been thinking about this for quite some time too. I plan to maybe study before I hit 30 or maximum when I’m 30. Just to get some more exposure (thinking of going Down Under) and take a break from work while I still can, while I’m still young, while I’m still single. Or if I suddenly get attached, we’ll see how lor.

Actually leh, tomorrow I just feel like doing nothing but then I feel like my day will be wasted. But then holiday is supposed to be doing nothing right? But you know what I did? Because I’m not working tomorrow, I actually spent like 3-4 hours to finish off some work on Saturday so that I can have a better Tuesday. So…in a way, I’m not really taking Monday off, considering that I brought 3-4 hours of Monday in advance to Saturday. Am I crazy or what?

I don’t feel stressed or whatsoever doing that, just that my mind keeps telling me a holiday means doing anything but work. But on the other hand, my mind tells me a holiday is to utilise it to do whatever you have no time to do when you have work and not just waste it by sitting and doing nothing. So the stressed part is when I’m not sure whether I should take a day off because I don’t have very strong reasons why I should take a day off because I usually take a few days off because I’m either going somewhere for holiday or….yea going somewhere for holiday. So…just to take one day off without going anywhere in particular make me feel weird?

You see….I’m very capable of this. It’s just a bloody day off and I’m stressing myself out!!!

Ok, let’s just go sleep!

I didn’t go to queue up at the pump despite the hike. Did that 2 years ago when the hike was more than the one happening 21 minutes ago as of writing.

I’m only curious to know what automatic pricing mechanism really means because I’d still like to feed the car with RON 97 or V Power so to speak.

Anyway, if the increase margin is going to be high, looks like I’ll have no choice but to live with 95 instead.

Exciting times ahead.

Hi my name is Metoo. I’m the latest addition to Gracie’s Bunny collection. I was given to Gracie by her friend who bought me as a birthday gift. I now stand beside Foo Foo. Foo Foo stands beside another praying bunny. We look like Charlie’s Angels Bunnies.

2.40am.

I’m still awake and looking for trouble. Bad skin is first in the list.

You know the world is changing when you get most of your birthday wishes on Facebook.

A friend called from Australia to wish me even though she’s one day late. That’s nice.

Had lunch with a friend today and had our dose of girl talk. Simple and it makes me happy. It’s moments like these that I cherish a lot. It’s not easy to maintain being good friends over a long period and I wish for many many years of friendship with her.

On my birthday as always, I reflect a lot on the past, where I was last birthday, what happened last year, what I plan to do, what I should really do…

I celebrated birthday last year with a friend but we are not really good friends anymore after knowing what she did. I may have forgive but I’ll never forget. The hurt is still there I guess and I’ve told myself not to be friends with people who hurt me. Again, only time can heal. Last year friends, this year not longer anymore, how dramatic.

Then there’s this ex who never fails to wish me every year. I don’t think I wished him on his past 1 or 2 birthdays. He calls me not Grace but by my Chinese name. People calling me by my Chinese name is so rare nowadays.

He’s attached now. Thanks to Facebook too in letting you know things without having to ask the person and sometimes without seeking for it, it just pops up at your face.

What I like most about last birthday is getting a birthday card at the office, couriered to me by my father. Pappy has never failed to be with me every birthday. He couldn’t make it last year so he made sure the card has to reach me. He couldn’t make it this year because of work but I totally understand that.

It is Pappy that has taught me to treat special occasions by putting your heart into it. I don’t know how to describe it but he’s just sensitive and he makes sure you are celebrated and you are important. Never forgotten.

3.25am.

I’m crying like a pig writing this.

It will be double trouble. Bad skin and swollen eyes.

I will be travelling in 2-3 months to a place so faraway for work, most likely for a couple of weeks. You can say it’s also my birthday present since I received the email on my birthday itself. I don’t always get chances like this so I look forward to this experience.

Learning to cook better is definitely one of the highlights I’ve installed for myself. Do you know that cooking requires courage? It’s like driving. The longer you drive, you handle the steering wheel so much better. I want it to be a few years down the road, I can simply cook something and not having to worry if it taste fine because I’ll be skilled by then to cook anything that will just be tasty.

3.40am.

Tears have dried up. Time to sleep.

Mummy called at around 11:30pm to tell me she’s going to wish me birthday only tomorrow morning. Very funny.

Pappy called around 5 minutes before 12 midnight and told me he won’t be free to call me tomorrow so he’s calling me now after coming back from a meeting. He said he won’t be able to buy me dinner tomorrow. I said it’s okay. He said he’ll buy me dinner when he comes over. I said okay.

As I was still on the phone with Pappy, Iris came into the room holding a cake lighted with candles. I was too engrossed on watching the new Korean series “Bread, Love and Dreams” (this one is a must watch. First episode and I’m hooked!) that when Iris came home, my eyes were glued to the TV and I didn’t notice her walking in with a cake.

Then, we ate a small piece of cake because I had already brushed my teeth and when she was holding the cake, I had my shower cap on my head and the other hand trying to catch hold of the camera to snap this picture for you. Opened my present. Thanks to those who have wished me as of time of writing. 1:26am. Love you all!

Oh yes, I’m 28!