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Early in the morning, I’ve already got a headache. Another unexpected traffic jam just as I come out of my housing area. The first thing that came to my mind wasn’t the possibility of a car accident..but I came to think about Mr. A and his supporters. And I was right. ANOTHER ROAD BLOCK. Along Sprint Highway, opposite of Eastin Hotel. Instead of just blocking one lane like they did the other day, today they blocked TWO lanes and I was LATE TO WORK. I drove for ONE HOUR which what could have took only 30 MINUTES.

Tomorrow I’ve got to wake up earlier because I don’t know if there will be another road block. Sometimes I don’t understand how blocking a road would help deter a protest. I mean people can still go through the hassle of a traffic jam and still can gather and protest, right? Can someone please tell me how a road block can help break a protest? Does the car of a protester look any different than the rest of the cars? Or can the police recognise the protesters by looking at the drivers? Trust me, the police aren’t even looking.

Enough of rant.

Other than the road block, I had quite a fun day. A treasure hunt session at one of the malls. Now I’ve got a pair of sore legs. Then, dinner session with two friends, which was nice.

And now I’m very sleepy. So good night and may you have a rockin’ Friday!

Guess some of you are caught in the wonderful traffic jam today. I was affected too but it wasn’t too bad. Only encountered one road block along Sprint highway, in front of Eastin Hotel on my way to work. I don’t know what’s the point of this also since the police aren’t really looking at the cars. They are just there. Coming back from work was worse. This time I was driving along LDP, it was okay until I reach Kelana Jaya. I know the traffic jam always start at this stretch onwards but today it just felt like there were more cars, traffic was slower. Just not my day.

Luckily I wasn’t late for work but I might want to consider leaving for work earlier tomorrow. Who knows if there’s going to be another roadblock!

I think I have found a friend. Alhamdulillah syukur nikmat. Malaysia maju rakyat selamat.

We are of the same kind. Trust me, I was praying hard for at least one newcomer so that I can start up a gang with the newbies. Two would be enough to make a company. So when my prayers materialised, I was dying to befriend them.

We hit it off quite immediately. I say we are the same kind because we are usually appear quiet and shy initially. But when two quiet souls click, they will be noisy between themselves. Quiet people are often misunderstood.

I discovered another someone who’s brushing teeth after lunch too! But then again, I don’t know her. All I know is she brushes her teeth too. And we were brushing together today. Haha!

Today I stared at the computer and I think I should be able to cope with my work. If I think I can, I can, kan?

Thank you Number_Six for calling me at 11 something last night because you said you want to be the first to wish me.

Thank you to my sister, Iris, for calling from UK at the strike of 12 midnight..when I was already sleeping.

No SMS when I woke up so I know I’m not that popular anymore. 😛

Charlene from Australia called while I was driving to work. Thank you darling!

Thank you to my ex-colleague Rachel for her SMS.

Thank you to those who dropped their birthday wishes here. Ying, liang mui, Charlene (again!), silent_one. Thank you! 🙂

Thank you to my insurance agent for wishing me too.

Thank you to Anis, my ex ex-colleague cum toilet buddy who still remembers my birthday. I wasn’t expecting to get an SMS from her today.

Thank you Annie, Nathan, Vanessa and my auntie for their SMSes too this morning. And yes, Mummy and Pappy.

Thank you to Jon for his offline MSN messages.

Thank you to one of the ex-boyfriend who personally called me while I was at work. I was actually starting to get a little bit emotional because this guy has never failed to call me despite us breaking up ages ago. And with that, it reminded me of the boyfriend whom as predicted forgot my birthday. No call from him even though I left him a message telling him off that it’s my birthday and he totally forgot about it. I also expected no reply anyway.

I know I have been telling myself not to feel too affected by this but it would be a lie to say that I’m not a single bit affected. Of course, there’s a tinge of sadness and I went to the toilet to calm down after the ex called and it suddenly brought up so many emotions. I feel a need to cry but I really hope not to cry on my birthday..but I don’t know how long I can hang on..so..I’ll try la ok.

If you think being single is sad, I don’t think so. It’s being in my situation where you are in a relationship but you are not that is pathetic. Don’t want to ask why he’s like that. I don’t know why and I can never understand why he’s just got to be so damn cold to that extent.

I sometimes wish for a backspace button to delete the bad relationships.

Okie, I shouldn’t rant too much on the birthday. Just want to say thank you again and oh ya, to those who left me birthday wishes at Facebook.

Work is getting more challenging that I was staring at the PC and wondering how I’m going to cope with this. I’m going to deal with it starting tomorrow. Today I’m just going to give myself a little break because it’s my birthday. Learning curve is steep as compared to before. I wanted challenges, so this is it.

On how I feel being a year older, I still think I’m lucky despite not having a happy relationship. Well, at least I have a loving family, caring friends and people who have never forgotten about me. I should really count the blessings. Perhaps God wants me to meet a few wrong ones before I meet the right one. I know I will meet him. I know we’ll be very happy together. I think it’s not too far away but it’s not very near either. I don’t know if you ever feel a very strong urge to love someone. I feel a lot like that lately. It’s like one of my purpose in life is to love someone wholeheartedly.

Happy Birthday Gracie. I love you for who you are.

Dearest Grace,

When you were little, you filled so many lives with sunshine…

It was so much fun to watch you grow up and discover the world around you…

And now that you’re a teenager, it’s just as much fun getting to know

the lovely young woman you’re becoming.

But no matter how much time goes by,

in a very special way, you’ll always be our “little girl.”

so special…

and loved so very much.

Read the above again and tell me what’s wrong. I was reading and I cannot help but laugh. The line that says, “And now that you’re a teenager”.

It’s one day early but Pappy flew in to KL today, just to celebrate the big day with me tomorrow. My pappy is some man, isn’t he? I think this kind of man is already extinct in this world because I still can’t find one. The one thing I feel very grateful towards my dad is the emphasis he places on his family. He takes every single occasion seriously. Birthdays have to be acknowledged and celebrated. It doesn’t matter whether it’s a big birthday bash or a simple dinner with just the four of us, or more recently, just Pappy and me. He just wants to make sure he’s there to celebrate the big day with you.

*sniff sniff* Rasa macam nak nangis.

I’ve never had any big birthday parties. It has always been dinner with the family or friends treating me lunch/dinner. I prefer it that way…or maybe I haven’t got a chance to have a big party to know if I like it or not. But..I think I still prefer a small crowd. I don’t know what Pappy will do tomorrow. He’s the total opposite of me. He likes the crowd. I hope he doesn’t do anything funny. Me scared. Do you know what he’s doing now while I type this? He’s trying to arrange my stuff. I don’t know why but I’ll let him.

But I think I know why, IT’S MESSY! hahahaha

And I’m still listening to Duffy’s Warwick Avenue. How can you not like this song and her unique voice?

Back to the birthday card, it was both signed by Pappy and Mummy.

In the car while I drove Pappy to dinner, “Pa, I’m a teenager.”

“What?”

“I’m a teenager, that’s what the card said. Didn’t you read?”

“No, I didn’t read it. Your mum bought the card.”

I figured so too. 😀

And she got me a bag.

Pappy was very cute also. He placed the card and the bag on my bed. Foo Foo, my little toy rabbit was standing on top of the card, on the bed. So when I went into the room after I came home from work today, I was like  “Wah!”. Foo Foo, what are you doing there?

Aww…Foo Foo has got a pressie for me.

and I’m listening to Duffy’s “Warwick Avenue”. Bloody good song.

Been thinking of revamping the wardrobe gradually. I’ve got too many clothes hidden in the wardrobe that I’m not wearing because they either don’t fit anymore or belong to the years of the dinosaurs. I think it has got something to do with age as well. Your taste changes as well. Of course, there are a few which have not seen the world. They’ve been there since I removed it from the shopping bag and has since collected dust. This, I call would shopping mistake. Something which I’ve been making sure I commit less and no mistakes of such and I think I’m getting better at it. Everytime I see something and feel like buying, I will ask myself 3 times if I will be wearing this, how do I match this with my existing clothes (the more the better, especially if it’s work wear) and is the price worth the buy.

While browsing through the new, not so new, not so old and old stuff, I found out that sometimes investing a little more on a clothing item of a particular brand has got its benefits. Some clothes don’t have the “worn off” effect even though it has been worn so many times.

I like looking at people who dresses well. It can be a simple tee and jeans but they are able to pull it off very well, knowing what colours to match, how the clothings matches their body types and shapes. You get to learn how to dress better also by observing how people wear their clothes, how to mix and match in ways you’ve never think of. Sometimes we have this pre-determined logic set in our head that this should always go with that and never in another way. But you know what, sometimes what you think doesn’t go along well or matches, actually matches perfectly well.

I think I need to go through every piece of clothing in my wardrobe, study how to maximise the full potential of every piece that I can find, so that I get more variety with the few pieces, plan ahead of what to wear especially during work days then I don’t have to say I don’t have anything to wear even though I know they are just in there hidden somewhere but I just can’t seem to find it. I often always wear rotate the same few pieces, most of the time my favourites, that I forget I have other clothes that I can actually wear.

My mama says if you don’t dress up when you’re young, when are you going to dress up?

My mama’s daughter thinks if one wears nicely, it makes one feel good, if one feels good, one feels positive, when one is positive, everything will fall into place.

12:10am. Still listening to Duffy’s Warwick Avenue but I really must head to bed. I think I can sleep now.

I’m leaving you for the last time baby…
You think you’re loving but you don’t love me.
I’ve been confused outta’ my mind lately…
You think you’re loving but I want to be free.
Baby you’ve hurt me.