benci. hahaha
so bad
hahaha. why wor
be happy. something to benci about.
i will quote you.
– My naughty friend, Nathan in normal font.
and me in italic because sometimes I’m a bit senget.
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Benci Tapi Rindu
SMS aku tidak dibalas.
TAK APA!
Panggilan saya tidak dijawab dan juga tidak dibalas.
JUGA TIDAK APA!
JANJINYA, I’m going to make sure I have a GREAT weekend WITHOUT even THINKING about HIM!
Kekadang, saya tidak mengerti kenapa harus dilayani sebegini. Saya terasa sangat ingin nak marah tetapi setiap kali bila dia muncul saja, kemarahan saya reda. Entah ke mana pergi.
Adakah itu perkara yang baik? Saya kurang pasti. Yang saya tahu, saya cuba sedaya-upaya untuk berasa marah tetapi yang tinggalnya hanya senyuman bodoh.
Selain itu, saya juga pandai mencari alasan untuk si dia.
“Mungkin dia sibuk.”
“Mungkin dia sudah tidur.”
“Mungkin tengah mandi kut.”
“Mungkin dia sibuk.”
“Memang pun dia sibuk.”
“Yalah tu, dia sangat sibuk.”
“Mungkin nanti dia akan call.”
BENCI! Tahu tak? BENCI!
Ada kalanya, saya melihat orang di sekeliling saya yang seolah-olah tiada masalah dalam percintaan. Mungkin ada sedikit pertengkaran dan perselisihan faham tetapi secara keseluruhannya, tak lah sedramatik kisah saya ini. Walau bagaimana pun, saya tidak akan membandingkan diri saya dengan orang lain sebab ia membazirkan masa dan buat sakit hati sahaja.
Saya tidak banyak menulis perkara yang menyedihkan di bawah kategori “Love Story” jadi saya seolah-olah nampak macam happy sangat. Tetapi hakikatnya, ada juga masa yang saya tidak happy sangat. Dan saya tidak akan menyorok hakikat itu.
Yang saya tahu, saya masih menanti.
…dan mungkin saya menanti keseorangan.
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define:Cute
I saw this….and I went Awwwwwww….
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Semalam Punya Dinner
Look like cheese cake or not?
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The Cat Who Climbs Trees
Yesterday, I came home and saw this black cat on the tree.
So, I was sort of talking to it.
“Okay, you stay there.”
*I need to take a picture. I need to take a picture.*
And I quickly get into the house and got hold of my camera. And I saw another white cat waiting under the tree. They must either be good friends or a couple.
Black cat must have mistaken my camera as a pistol because it ran down quickly from the tree and dashed towards the bushes.
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5:55
*cell phone beeps at 5:55 am today*
It’s my little sister messaging me in the wee hours of the morning because she misses me. Needs to manja me.
And this certainly needs a prompt reply because I know how it feels when you miss someone and you don’t get any response. Can be very torturing.
But of course, if I hate you, I don’t mind you going through the torture.
So I replied and in which I got another reply, “Yer, why are you awake geh? Is it 6 am there?”
The messages ping-ponged for one hour. In between that one hour, I collapsed and then woke up, collapsed and then woke up because I wanted to sleep and also replied the messages.
*Gracie wakes up at 7am this morning* —> ACHIEVEMENT!!!
…considering the fact that I have such great difficulties in arriving at the workplace before 9:30am for the previous week, which is the latest time allowed. Today I reached before 9. Wait, I reached slightly after 8:30am. Before that, dropped by the post office to send a card home. Mother’s Day this weekend, you see.
Came home and cooked.
Steamed egg with minced pork.
One of my favourite dish because it’s easy to cook and tastes good to me.
I have nothing to write about today, really.
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5 Things
Got tagged by Piggy!
5 things found in my bag:
Mobile phone, purse, tissue, lip gloss, comb. There’s more actually.
5 things found in my purse:
Money, cards. Only 2 main things. The rest, I/C, driving licence, credit card..they are in another separate card holder.
5 favourite things in my room:
DUCKY!!!, blanket, smelly hankie, smelly pillow, the bedsheet.
5 things I always wanted to do:
Travel, play the piano again, write a book, love him, study again.
5 things I’m currently into:
Watching HEROES series, working hard, waiting for the phone to ring, waiting for someone to answer my call, talking to myself.
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With You
Today I’ve got one whole afternoon.
One whole afternoon.
That is like so rare.
Because his job has got no sense of time. Even during weekends.
So…I should really be happy.
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He needs time.
A lot of it.
Although he doesn’t tell me this but I know.
To build what a guy needs to build.
Whether or not it’s going to be me in the end, I feel the need to see him through.
I want to help him but I know I can’t help him fully. But I will try.
I can be a listener. Though sometimes I have no idea of what he’s talking about. Like when he talks about his job. But I always try to appear like I know or I’m trying to know and I’m learning to know.
Then he looks at me and felt like he just wasted his time talking to me about it.
“You don’t understand what I’m talking about.”
Sometimes, my face, is an open book. It can’t lie.
“Of course, I don’t know because I’m not doing what you’re doing. But if you tell me, I’m learning to understand.”
He has certainly “eaten more salt than I have eaten rice” so he is quite salty, despite the fact that he may not have a university degree. He has seen more things, done more things. And I like it that way that he is well-marinated.
Okay, now that I’m describing him like he’s some kind of food. This entry should just end here.
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It Looks Better Now
It took me one afternoon to just clean and arrange things in my study room. A room I spend most my time besides the living room and bedroom. It now looks like a cleared jungle. I like it. It can be better but as for now, I’m contented.
It wasn’t easy arranging Iris’s stuff with her stack of Law notes, which I’m sure I cannot throw at the moment.
Vacuumed and washed the toilet. I didn’t feel like mopping because I felt tired already. So, I’ll continue tomorrow.
Good night.