Category: Life

I don’t know if any of you who are single get this…”Let me introduce someone to you”

And most of the time, there’s no news after that. I’ve heard it countless times from different friends, I’m getting a bit sick when I hear the same thing again from another person, to only know it’s just something they say, not something they will do.

So now when someone tells me he/she has got a friend to introduce to me (in hope that me and the guy whom gets introduced to me can be an item), I return a smile. I don’t want to say anything else.

I went to work early yesterday because I had to leave work early to  head to Muar, Pappy’s hometown, for Qing Ming (All Souls’ Day).

My uncle drove us all down and it took us 4 hours to reach because of the heavy downpour, several accidents along the way which caused traffic jam. We then settled for a not very yummy wan tan mee because the stalls were mostly closed.

Woke up at around 5am this morning because we have to be at the cemetery by 6:30am. We’ve got to be early because we’ve got 5 graves to visit. My paternal grandma and grandpa, my uncle, my auntie and I don’t know who else. It was quite scary because it was still dark and misty and it’s situated in between some oil palm plantation but when it approached 7am, it was all nice and cool and breezy.

I didn’t talk much because all of my dad’s family speak Teo Chiew and I don’t really know how to speak the dialect. I understand what they are saying though. My task this time around is to paint the faded red Chinese word on the graves along with my other cousins. I have so many cousins, I don’t even know their names. I’m auntie to so many nephews and nieces, I really cannot keep track or recognise who is who. That is how big the family is on my father’s side.

Most of the time, I feel out of the league when I’m here. Luckily I know Mandarin so I can still communicate with them when I needed to. Else, I think I do not need to talk at all.

That aside, I’m learning the praying process. It’s not my first time praying but I’ve never really understood what I was doing when I was young. I only remembered burning joss sticks and putting them on the grave.

It was quite nice. I like the idea of being in a small town sometimes. Enjoyed  homemade nasi lemak by my aunt at her house for late breakfast and then a RM2.80 wan tan mee again for lunch. RM0.70 for a glass of soya bean which tasted so heavenly.

For the first time in my life, I think… I can say I love my job.

I had this bodoh smile plastered on my face while I was driving home.

I had lunch with someone new today too. A GUY. hahaha

This friend of mine invited him and so 3 of us ate together.

This friend of mine works at the same place with me and I didn’t know it. I bumped into her in the toilet and we both asked each other, “What are you doing here?”

“I’m here for an interview.”

“Today is my 2nd day working here.”

We went to the same primary school and was in the same class for 3 years. We then went to the same secondary school. We lost touch when we attended college and somehow life brings us back together again, now in the form of a same workplace. We will be sharing the same room too when she moves in temporarily to my place tomorrow.

Instead of talking to the television, I can now talk to a person at home after work.

One thing you must know about me. Maybe I’ve blogged about this before but I don’t remember.

I can never spit for my life. I just don’t know why. I have all these phlegm stuck in my throat but I just cannot get it out with my mouth. The only option I have is to blow it out through the nose but I really think it’s harder to get it out from the nose, especially it is sticky  and not so watery.

Trust me, I have tried to spit using my mouth. It’s either I cough so hard that my lungs are about to come out from my mouth and still see no phlegm or it feels as though I’m trying to vomit my stomach out.

Well, of course, miracle happened once or twice. It’s so long ago I don’t remember when was the last time I managed to use my mouth for once and boy was I thrilled. I was overjoyed. I swear I could cry.

My fever has subsided. The cough is here but I think I’ll get through this very soon too.

It’s certified. I’m down with fever. The last time I had one was about 3 years ago. I just want to get well soon.

I think I’ve been too tired so the body is complaining now. Do you know that I’ve been farting for 2 days already? Those little farts smell like a big toxic bombs. Every fart that comes out from my body makes me feel I’m detoxing by releasing gas. I don’t know why I’m farting like a gun machine all of a sudden.

Pimples are receding. My body temperature has gone down after I took a nap just now in the afternoon. What’s bothering me now is the leftover watery phlegms and an annoying throat. Just going to end the day by watching the Swiss Open. Lee Chong Wei beat Lin Dan just now. I’m so thrilled and very happy for him. Going to watch the men’s doubles now.

Hope to be up and running tomorrow at work. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately and a lot of justification. If time permits, I would want to pen it down tomorrow.

Good nite! 🙂

It’s 2:50am as I’m writing this on the laptop seated on my lap while I’m lying on the bed. I didn’t want to freak my parents out waking up at this hour and to be caught sitting in front of my desktop PC of the study room. I came home feeling feverish after work today due to the cold and wet weather in the morning which boosted the aircon at the workplace to work too powerful for my liking. I started to have a runny nose by the time I came home, it wasn’t good.

Downed a cup of hot herbal tea and an apple before bed and tried to get some sleep earlier but I just couldn’t get to sleep because I was sneezing and feeling so uncomfortable. I had to sneak out from the bedroom in search of Panadol but couldn’t find any (also didn’t want to freak my parents out) but I found Clarinase which isn’t too bad a find. Works well for my condition so I popped in one pill and then tried to get to bed. It felt like I’ve slept the whole morning but to my horror, it’s only 2:32am when I suddenly woke up which explains why I’m writing this at a very odd hour on a very very old laptop which has not seen the daylight for I don’t know how many years. You see…when I turned it on, there’s this system configuration error that has got something to do with the system date and when XP is loaded, the system clock showed January 2004. Kesian.

I just felt the need to get things off my chest. I’ve not written for days and that’s because I’ve been busy and I’m trying to balance my life after work. It’s been 2 weeks since I last joined the new place. It has opened up my eyes and broadened my perspective a little. I could also see how I was responding to the new environment, the new people and a whole new life. I’m certainly not the laid-back or happy-go-lucky type when I’m in the office because I’m always spending time worrying, trying my best to absorb everything and doing things right the first time. That may have created unnecessary stress and pressure upon myself but I sometimes find it hard to slow down, sit back, relax and just chill out. I think I can only feel comfortable once I’ve begin to mastered something and I know it by heart.

I was told today that I’m doing it well and that helped indeed. J Sometimes, that’s all we need to hear to continue to strive. I have to continue to do better though because more will be coming to my plate.

However, Mummy isn’t very please with me. Pimples on my face has begin to show, especially on the forehead. When it appears on the forehead, it usually means stress. Then, she went on how I wasn’t keeping the house the way it should be in. Sometimes I get so tired after work, all I want to do is just rest and not lift a vacuum cleaner or re-arrange some stuff. But when Mummy is here, I really got to keep up with her beat. She’s got some ways in which she wants certain things to be done. I have a manager at the office and I also have a manager at home, which is Mummy when she’s around. She was nagging to me just now before I went to bed. Of course, I wasn’t feeling very happy to be lectured at but it’s not something to complain about. Maybe I’ve just not done things well enough at home yet. I’m going to work on that.

Okay, it’s 3:30am and I really think I should get back to some sleep again. Good morning!

This is my second attempt at writing this entry. The first one went bonkers due to a click of something and I cannot retrieve the draft. Bah!

This is a much needed weekend for me. The whole process of job-hunting (wait, no. I should say the whole process of thinking whether the previous job suited me and then followed by the job-hunting process) was somewhat stressful. I’ve not really had the time to actually rest my mind from serious thinking. Sometimes I don’t know why I’m doing this to myself. Really. I mean some people know very well what they want to do from the very start. It’s been 4 years for me and I’m still searching. I hope my search ends here. Haha..but let’s just see! It may not be a high-flying job and I don’t know where it’ll bring me to next but I believe in excelling in what you do no matter how small it is. I don’t like the feeling being in a job where I know I cannot excel no matter how hard I try. Accomplishment is very important to me.

Adapting to changes is what I’ll be doing for the coming weeks. From driving a shorter route to work, parking at a different place, paying more expensive parking fees, still paying the same toll, adjusting to new working hours, looking at new faces, learning the culture and fitting into the environment, dressing up, paying more for food, learning new stuff out of my job scope because I don’t really have a main task yet for the time being, getting to know my colleagues, opening my mouth, staying positive all the time, being brave, protecting myself and etc…

Met up with 2 of my darlings on Saturday and I had the chance to become a little crazy after being very proper and all during my first week of the new job. Watched Marley & Me. Makes you laugh and makes you cry. You’ll like if you’re a dog lover or you’ve owned a pet.

Photo by Barry Wetcher/20th Century Fox

Dear Ducky,

Today is definitely a better day. I think I will survive here. 🙂

That’s all for today.

Love,
Mama