Year: 2009

It’s from a forwarded email I got today. I like this. Hope you do too!

It’s the last day and it’s about to come to an end. OH CHINESE NEW YEAR, I MISS YOU AND TILL I SEE YOU AGAIN NEXT YEAR!

Every year when it’s chap goh meh, I will feel a bit emotional. I don’t want CNY to end. When it ends, I’d have to pick up the pieces again. Un-decorate the house. Some sort like after CNY, the world will be harsher.

Went to Cyberjaya today to meet my ex-colleagues for lunch. I went back to my previous workplace too, sat on my desk (now occupied by an ex-colleague but she didn’t come to work today). Sometimes I miss this place due to its relaxing nature of work. Sometimes it gets busy but it’s manageable and it comes with no stress. Everyday I go to work like I’m not going to work. It’s like my daily routine, a part of my life. After work, I come home and I’ve never had the need to think about work when I’m home or during the weekends. I rarely have any Monday blues..and even if I have..my colleagues will cure it for me. We can have our daily tea time at the pantry and yet still managed to finish up our work ahead of time.

Will I ever get to find a place like that in the future? I’m not very sure. But I’m certain that I want a change now. I think life is too short to be working sadly. The journey ahead will be tough and I’ll need to persevere before I even see a light but I’m prepared for that. I might even consider changing job scope or changing fields, when I’m pushed to a corner and feel sick and fed up of everything. Previously, I used to think that climbing the corporate ladder is important. Now I can tell you, I don’t feel like climbing the corporate ladder at all. I just want to be able to do my work well, be confident with my knowledge and areas of expertise and continuously making sure I’m learning everyday. I just want to be someone’s wife and some adorable children’s mother.

I want to be happy with what I do and how I live. And to do that, I need to set my direction of how I want to live it and paint it with as many colours as possible.

It’s another hour before Chinese New Year comes to an end but it’ll be the beginning of a fruitful year I hope.

Have a good day at work tomorrow.

I love you.

Went to watch a CNY movie today.

Listened to Chinese New Year songs after that for the whole day, savouring every last drop of it before it ends tomorrow.

And even though I know I ought to sleep earlier as I’ve been sleeping late throughout the whole Chinese New Year…my body and mind just didn’t feel like it because I know after CNY, there is not going to be many holidays and there will be more work. So I spent the hours of late nights indulging in my personal pursuits.

I feel that I’m different, my mind is changing. I want to live life to the fullest.

This is my 2nd time visiting Dong Zen Temple. The first time was also during Chinese New Year a few years ago. I love to come to this place especially during Chinese New Year.

Other than praying and taking pictures, one interesting thing I did today was  Chinese calligraphy writing. I have not done this for ages. The last time I did it was in school. Did you know that I once represented my primary school for calligraphy competition? 😀

There’s a hall for visitors to sit in and write the Buddhist verses. I liked it very very much.

Let the photos do the talking, ok? (click on image to view. works well with firefox but works cacat with IE. will fix it once i find the solution to it.)

Yup, it’s a working day and we were permitted to leave work earlier to attend the annual dinner. Didn’t set my hair like I did last time because it’s so short, what else is there to mess with the hair? See…when you have short hair, you can skip the idea of spending money to get your hair done. As for the make-up, sendiri mari.

Wore a maroon tube dress. Got myself a hamper for lucky draw and danced the night away.

That handsome guy smiled at me when he turned around. woo hoo!

Still the same. Still trying. Still struggling.

I need a good night’s sleep. That should solve things temporarily.

I’m just so bored suddenly. Can’t wait for the weekend to come because I’ll be meeting my friends again.

I feel so lost today. I swear if you asked me to vomit my heart out, I could.

Frankly speaking, I didn’t feel like going to work today even though yesterday my semangat was like berkobar-kobar. Had to force myself to wake up in the morning because I was so sleepy to a point that is not describable in words.

Pushing so hard for my mind to work in the office. This is after-effect of a long holiday. Didn’t even have the mood to dress up for work but tomorrow I will have to dress up a bit lah. Maklumlah it’s still Chinese New Year. I am like that one.

I’m still trying to find the joy and happiness of my work. Although it isn’t a very good working day today as my heart is left at home and my brain is at work, I’m really trying my best to talk myself in showing a professional attitude. It’s not an easy chore to talk to myself everyday. I’m so hard to be motivated, except maybe if there was a lion dance in the office today then it would have helped to jump start my day.

I don’t know why I go post yesterday as Jade Emperor’s Birthday. Maybe because everyone was praying last night so my mind also sot already. Correction to the title of yesterday’s post.

Today is the day I flew back to KL. Air Asia’s aircraft is very cold and their landing has always been perfect. It’s good to be back even though I kept lamenting how sad I am to leave Sandakan. Like I said, I feel recharged this time, my mind is clearer and so I feel more in control of myself than before. It might change entirely after I start work and get drowned in the workload but let’s just hope I get to steer myself properly this time. Even if drown also I will get to keep myself afloat after that.

Did the usual thing when I come home. Open all the windows. Water the plants (they have been very thirsty for about 13 days..I am glad they are not dead). Kiss Ducky and Bebeki. They smell like they’ve not been kissed for a long time. EAT! (Mummy fried some rice for me so that I can eat after I reach KL and so I came home and had lunch at 3pm). I look around the house and I just love this house.  Went out to pump petrol, pump air and went for facial. hehe

Time is very precious to me now so whenever I have free time, I’ll slot in a facial session else it’s hard to slot myself in during working days. Face is so red now, I hope the redness fades by tomorrow morning.

I’m listening to CNY songs again now and selecting photos to be edited and uploaded for your viewing pleasure if you can see me in Facebook of course.

Tomorrow 4 February is ??  (Li Chun), the beginning of Spring and I’m starting work on the this day itself. I read somewhere that it’s the worst day to start work  if you are born in the year of the Dog…but I don’t really have a choice but to start work tomorrow. I will ignore it and stick to my belief that starting work on the beginning of Spring would mean a start of a new life and new hope! must think positive ma! correct or not?

EAT!

EAT!

…and EAT!

Prawn. Fish. Crab. Shell. Eat these almost everyday to a point where I’m a bit scared just looking at a prawn! I’ve always love fish so it’s fine. I can go with fish everyday.

We had lobster today. I didn’t want it because I felt like so tired of eating anything related or looking like a prawn but Pappy insisted, saying I won’t get to eat lobster like this in KL. So he bought 2 fresh lobster from Sim Sim. Fresh as in they are still alive when we bought it.  2 lobsters for RM20. Very very good deal!

After dinner, there was a lion dance at one of the restaurants. This lion is neither the lompat-lompat kind nor the kopek limau kind, it’s the DRINKING BEER kind. hehe

Can’t write much. Need to sleep earlier. Need to catch a flight.

Sandakan..I will always love you.