Category: Life

• Was at the Padini Warehouse Sale with Iris. Have never seen such queues. Have never gotten myself wet at a warehouse sale but today I did due to the rain and standing under the corner of the canopy which wasn’t fully covered and thus got wet but has got no choice because that was the only way to the cashier and the only way out.
• I tell you it was madness and I’m not going there anymore because it isn’t worth it. Maybe it was worth it if you went on the first and second day but not the last day because you get to see repetitive clothes on not just one or two sections but more. A pregnant woman was walking in the rain with a baby in her arms and requesting the guy manning the exit if she could come in. Answer was no. I mean…can’t you show some compassion to a pregnant woman with a baby in her arms in a rainy situation? But then again, it was really so crowded, you can’t even bypass the exit to go to the main section so …but it was sad to see lah. And I don’t understand why the pregnant woman came to such a crowded warehouse sale because with a baby in her arms and a big bump, how is she possibly going to juggle with the crowd. Even I have problem standing still when people keep pushing like they’ve got no manners. And you will get remarks smacked right into your ears that certain race is on fasting mode while the other races are not so the other races should retreat and let the fasting race go first. I understand that it is hard for them to withstand the crowd with no food and water and maybe it’s tiring. I don’t know but the remarks that you get to listen, not just one but a few times from different people wasn’t pleasant to hear. I don’t know how to put this but it was so crowded there wasn’t any way to retreat or give way or whatsoever, you just got to keep on moving forward. And look who’s pushing!!
• In conclusion, it was lousy!
• Didn’t have the mood to go to another warehouse sale so Iris and I just took our own sweet time at a shopping mall.
• And we met Amber Chia!
• Oh yes. Almost everyone in the store was like awe-struck or mesmerised and there was someone who looked at her with his mouth opened. I cannot stop myself from looking at her discreetly all the time until my mind confirms and tells me that “Yes, she’s Amber.”
• It’s 2:52am and I’m still awake because I’m waiting for Iris to be back. She’s out having a drink with her friends and it has been a tradition for me to wait for her. Not something she requests me to do but I’m just like that.

Gracie presents to you Fried Kangkung with garlic and perencah sayur goreng cap ADABI. It is so nice and crunchy that I’m in love with myself. Had steamed egg also, just one egg in a small bowl because I was thinking just eating kangkung will make me look sad so I should make an egg to accompany it with rice. So steamed egg was too ugly to have its picture taken but safe for the stomach.

I’ve got myself another domain name. This will only be revealed when the site is ready. When? I have absolutely no idea because I’ve got to put that aside first while I work on a photobook which I’m planning to have it as Pappy’s birthday present at the end of the month. I don’t know if I can finish editing the pictures or not. They are scanned newspaper articles of my dad playing tennis throughout his younger days till now so some are really old and blur and it’s really hard getting all of them to fit into the photobook. I think this task is harder than my day job.

Photobooks aren’t cheap but I love photos and the memories that they bring so does Pappy so I think this should be a very good gift. I’ve been wanting to do this for so long but just never got the initiative to get my butt moving. So this photobook mission is a DO or DIE thing. Like I don’t have enough to do already!! But Gracie, you must persevere. What is a photobook as compared to your dad raising you up to become a lovely lady? Nothing!! So? STOP COMPLAINING!!

Okie, I really must stop writing now as I’ve got to wash the dishes, water the plants, brush my teeth, drink some water and then go to bed. I need to be at the office at 7:30am tomorrow so that I could leave by 4:30pm to get to the airport to pick up the king and princess a.k.a Pappy and Iris.

Need to go earlier because I don’t know the way from the office to the airport. I roughly know but not very sure but it’s not going to be a problem because sometimes I’m a highway expert. How? Just follow the roadsigns. HAHA!

Then, to beat the ramadhan traffic jam if there is any.

And of course I have to be earlier than when the plane lands since I’m the penyambut tetamu.

I CAN’T WAIT TO HAVE MY SISTER BACK AGAIN. WE’RE SO GOING SHOPPING ON SATURDAY SINCE THERE ARE 2 WAREHOUSE SALES. why must there be still warehouse sales when i’m broke and have already made a vow i won’t be shopping anymore after the mega sales? BUT THEN IT SAVES ME MONEY IN THE LONG RUN. i tell you i really am turning into an aunty. i go to a supermarket or pharmacy and i look for great deal items, must buy items (of course those that i use la, not just any must buy items) and i will compare prices one lor, more than ever.

Anyway, good night!

It could be the after effects of the extra long weekend or it was something else but this morning I really didn’t want to get up to go to work. Not just any normal Monday blues, in this case, Tuesday blues. I was really feeling the kind of feeling I hate, dreading to go to work. Yup. This has not visited me for a long time and now it hits me and when it does, I panic.

I was late to work because I left my phone at home. I wasn’t too far away from home when I realised I forgot my phone. Why did I forget it? Because someone SMSed me early in the morning and after replying the message, I put it on the coffee table and went to wash my mug as soon as I finish my oats. And it was just there until I came back to get it. While I was eating oats, I was still thinking about work that I think it made me blur and forgetful and unaware.

While driving, I really felt like I didn’t want to go to work. A bit like rasa wanna nangis. I swear to God I’m not even kidding and I just wasn’t sure why I feel this to this kind of extend. I wanted the feeling to go away.

Went to work late because of the turnaround to get the phone but as soon as the day started, I was fine again. I think I will be fine again. At least tomorrow is imaginable, that I don’t think I’ll have that dragging feeling. Already planned what to wear tomorrow…so I should be okay.

I talk to myself a lot. Not neccesarily out loud but just talking to myself inside of how and what I should do the counter whatever feeling that is coming unexpectedly.

One thing didn’t help though when I know someone that I was just starting to get close with will be leaving me. 🙁

Broke my heart a little when I hear about it.

Anyway, I was chased by a dragonfly in the lift today. Yea, very funny I know. I’m scared of dragonflies but I know they bring good luck or they mean good things are coming your way. That is the definition of a dragonfly to me. Just like how if some bird flies into your house and then flies out, it means you’re going to score big time in your examination. For example, getting straight As in public examination. This is proven. Really!

I cooked dinner tonight. Yea, after all the complaints that I have lesser time now and bla bla bla. I just had to make dinner tonight. It didn’t come easy because on one hand I had already decided to cook but on the other hand, the mind says go MCD, then other mind says go tapau nasi lemak, then the mind says go get your mouth rinse and then tapau nasi lemak, then the other mind says go to One Utama to get your mouth rinse, vegetable and food, Finally lah finally, I JUST TOLD ALL THE MINDS THAT CAME OUT FROM ONE MIND OF MINE THAT I’M GOING HOME TO COOK. IT’S FINAL!

So my humble kitchen and me present to you choy sum with prawns. 😀

Just so you know, I am fine. Felt a whole lot better after yesterday’s downpour. Yup, I was actually sobbing like mad after writing what I wrote last night…but I’m fine now.

Woke up in the morning to make myself carrot and orange juice. Yummy!

I’m going to have steamed egg with meat plus rice for lunch today. Yes, cooking time again! Am also soaking green bean to boil green bean soup later. Tonight I think I’ll have the remaining choy sum cooked and maybe some prawns.

I’m thinking of getting myself another domain. A place that allows me to separate my writings here and allowing me to put photos and write short entries of the photos itself. Because this is what I love doing and I wouldn’t need to link my emotional self to this new domain. It is just going to be about the happy stuff and at the same time, I get to rant and express myself as uglily as I sometimes need to here. Have not been taking photos for a long long time. The desire just died off but I want to make it come back. I don’t have super duper camera to take nice pictures like the professional does. I only have a humble Olympus compact camera to do the job and very often I take say like 20 pictures just to get 1 picture that I really like.

Now it’s back to cleaning and tidying up the hurricane mess of my house.

One thing’s for sure. I don’t think I’ll be buying books anymore. Was at the MPH Warehouse Sales and bought 7 books. Before that I was at Times Bookstore Warehouse Sales and bought 3 books. Was also at Borders Sales but I didn’t get anything because nothing interest me.

Another financially tight month. 2 return flight tickets booked for next Chinese New Year and some other stuff which I do not wish to list down because it will only pain me.

Watched Wall-E at GSC Signature, The Gardens today, courtesy of a friend of mine. Had lunch at Sushi Zanmai, also courtesy of a friend of mine. Got my vacuum cleaner hose fixed, courtesy of the same friend of mine. This would mean I can save up a few hundred bucks for something else.

I was thinking of going to the pasar malam to get dinner but then finally settled to go to the nearest mini market to get some vegetables and eggs. I’m making myself dinner because I didn’t want to spend further. Had stir fried choy sum with chicken. It’s nice to get back to the kitchen again. I don’t remember the last time I fried a vegetable dish.

I feel that I have a handful to complete this month, that is why a long weekend was much needed. Stayed home the whole Saturday until I couldn’t restrict myself anymore and had to go to the MPH Warehouse Sales. Been doing some thinking but I don’t think it’s doing me any good.

Called him and there was no answer. And while I listened to the ringing tone at the other end, tears started to stream down again. Not the sobbing kind, just tears to express whatever’s inside. I’ll try again. I’ve got no choice but to be patient yet again. Dear God, can you please let him talk to me just once? It is one of the things that bugs and haunt me from time to time. Whenever the mind flashes  back to this and reminds me of it, I just don’t know what to do to solve this. Maybe it takes a little more time. Always thinking that this is hard on me but I’m really trying to  live like I cannot be bothered with this problem that has been plagueing me for months now. I hope I’ll be able to write about it one day when the problem is settled. For now, i got to keep this burden to myself.

I’m starting to think that my spending habits may have got to do with with the lousy relationship…or the yearn for a proper one.  Sometimes I don’t really know what I want. Always in doubt and uncertain. It’s like I’m spending to fill the missing pieces of my heart.

This entry is not clearly written as I wanted it to be. I don’t know how to untie the complicated knot that I’m feeling now and to put it into words. Only knowing that I got to get it out of my system before I go to bed with laundry still left unhang at 1:33am.

To summarise it all, I’d say it isn’t too bad a day, minus the part when I cried a little, which I’ve managed to keep a cool about it for 2 months before ending up bursting a little today. I’m lucky that I have not even gone crazy yet.

Thank you for making my day. You know who you are, who went to me to the movies today. Telling me that this is the 2nd time you’re watching the movie. There really isn’t a need to watch it for the 2nd time just because I said I wanted to watch it. But I appreciated it very much.

Somehow Wall-E reminds me of myself. The cockroach pet that he has reminds me of the Ducky that I have. It’s a pest to the others while Ducky might be seen as unneccesarry or a junk but Ducky means very much to me and I can’t really figure out why I can be so attached to a thing..so what more when it comes to a person? Staying alone in a deserted city, Wall-E was doing what he was supposed to, working to clear off the trash on Earth while at the same time longing for love. And finally Eve came along. Wall-E tried very hard just to get that holding hand moment, went to great lengths to stick to something he is so determined to do, which he got at the very end. It is a very heart warming movie even though it was almost like a non-dialogue movie but manages to deliver the message very well.

This is going to be long.

4 of us took a cab to KL Sentral because I didn’t feel like driving. With the road closure and all, I just didn’t want to risk getting stuck somewhere and I’m not familiar with parking the car at the stadium. We had early dinner at KL Sentral which was very crowded with the balik kampung over the Merdeka holidays. No seating place at McDonald’s so we settled for Subway but they ran out of breads! We had wraps instead. This is my first time eating in Subway.

We then walked to the monorail station to get a monorail to Maharajalela station. Not too crowded and reached Stadium Merdeka around 6:45pm or earlier and to find that the concert will only start at 8:45pm instead of 8pm. But I know well that it’s going to start later than 8:45pm. I’ve never been to any concert that starts sharp on time. There were more police trucks than usual.

The gates were open around 7 or later so it wasn’t too long queueing outside. Then the next thing we knew, it started drizzling and then it rained. I managed to smuggle in my umbrella so I was okay and we had this Hotlink banner thing which we untied from the post to shed ourselves, we also offered a Malay couple sitting next to us to squeeze in with us under the banner. But then the rain got heavier and umbrella won’t help. We saw people getting raincoats. One of us went to collect it outside but before he came back with the raincoats. The malay guy whom we were squeezing the banner with came back with enough raincoats for us. How thoughtful!

Then, I don’t know why..they went away..maybe to find another spot. Then these few Chinese girls came along asking if anyone is sitting there. I just told them there were two just now but not sure if they are coming back. Then she asked my friend next to me if they are Chinese. My friend said no…and she replied saying, “Then lagi no need to care.”

I don’t know what kind of sick statement is this. I didn’t like it at all. In fact, I was very disgusted.

Never mind about that. Let’s talk about happy things!

Sitting around us were couples, a girl who came to watch the concert by herself ( I really salute her because I can eat alone, stay alone, walk alone but I can never go to a concert alone. And when you look at her, she’s alone but not lonely, in fact I think she enjoys herself very much and it’s nice to see.) There’s also a father bringing along 2 daughters. The father is not the young young kind or rock rock kind so it’s very heartwarming when you see him with his daughters, moving to the beat of Avril’s songs and even equipped with their own raincoats! So one thing I learnt…since concerts do not allow you to bring in umbrellas, bring raincoats!

There was even one guy who brought a booklet of lyrics. He used his mobile phone to get some ray of light so that he could read and sing along with the lyrics. Talk about being Avril’s fan!

One of the security guard came and saw us with our umbrella and out of the so many others with umbrella ( I think my umbrella is pretty la), he just had to come and tell us that the organiser says no umbrella is allowed…so we had to close the umbrella. He looked guilty telling us that but I know he was just doing his job. Out of guilt, he gave us more raincoats. Do you know how many raincoats I came back with ? SEVEN!!

Concert started at 9:15pm after 2 hours plus of agonising wait.

Started off with “Girlfriend”. I was expecting it to be the last song though but it was fine as it got the concert starting well. Loved the pink guitar, pink piano. My favourite piece was when Avril played on the piano, “When You’re Gone”. Very very nice!!

Also loved “The Best Damn Thing”. The only setback is that it ended too quickly. When Avril was introducing her band, it gave me a very weird feeling because usually this is done when the concert is about to come to an end and she did it before the concert came to an hour. Before we know it, the concert ended and she came back with an encore  with the song “Sk8er Boi” and then the end.

Everyone was like dumbstruck. And not leaving. It was only an hour.

Really tak puas. We wanted more but it was really the end.

We left and walked towards the monorail station but it was so crowded we decided to head for Petaling Street in search for food and other means of transport. We ended up walking a long journey because of the indecisiveness and taxi charging me unreasonable rates and finally settled for Pasar Seni LRT station. Took the LRT back to Kelana Jaya and was charged midnight rate even before midnight but it was okay la. The rate was still acceptable and we didn’t have much choice. No more taxis in sight if we don’t take it.

I really don’t like going to Stadium Merdeka and I also dislike going for countdown in the city centre. Been there, done that. It’s a torture. So much so that I like to be within a crowd to celebrate, it pains me when it’s time to go back. The LRT station …you can just forget about it. It’s a massive human-traffic jam. Taxis charge you like you grow money on trees but you’ve really got no choice but to take it if you don’t drive. Driving is another nightmare.

So, if you ajak me out for countdown in the city centre, I really would have pass it unless there’s something so special that I have to be there. I rather sit at home and enjoy it from the television.

Back to Avril, it was short but I would say it’s short and sweet. Thinking back of it, the concert was fun albeit short. And this may be the only time Avril is coming and I can say…I’ve been to a rock concert! 🙂

Thank you, Avril!

Longest working day today I had thus far in the new place and it’s only just the beginning. I need to expect more of days like this and September is going to be tough. I think I can do this but I’ve just got to kiss my swimming sessions goodbye perhaps. September is going to be memorable also and I guess the hardship will be softened with Iris being around. You know how she calls my name when she sees me after work, calls me in the office and asking me what I’m doing and telling me what she’s doing, waiting for me for dinner and then talk like we will never run out of topic. Yet, I feel that due to work, I’ll have less time spent with her as well so I really got to make every second count!

She went back today with Pappy to Sandakan so I’m home alone again. Was driving home after work and didn’t know what to eat. If it’s early, I could still go back and cincai cook something, except for maggi. But because I worked later than usual, then I started feeling lonely and butt is itchy, wanna go somewhere do something, just being somewhere.

Hit the shopping mall, ate alone at the small snack house. Alone but not really feeling lonely now because I was really enjoying my bowl of noodles. The waiter was kind to me. The cashier was also kind that he gave me RM5 instead of RM2, but he realised it before the RM5 reached my hand. I was even kinder because I got myself 2 bras and 2 polo tees. Like I said, you are seeing a shopaholic in the making.

But you know what? It makes me happy. When I like wearing something and when it looks good, I’m happy and makes me feel a little bit more confident.

I’m on holiday tomorrow but there are some personal errands to be settled. A house to clean. Thanks to my vacuum cleaner hose which decided to die on me yet again. This time I’d have to bid it farewell forever and I’m going to get a new vacuum cleaner. This would be my first owned vacuum cleaner. Must make the right choice. Anyone who has any recommendation for any particular vacuum cleaner, please feel free to drop a comment.

Then I’m going to a concert and I hope the weather will be fine. Look how it rains everyday now. But otherwise, I’m going to have a good time with my ex-colleagues at the concert. When you are single, God gives you friends! I’m starting to consider myself single because it has been like 2 months since the boyfriend contacted me. It’s like I’m non-existent. Not the first time I’m going through this. No longer crying like I used to. I think I’m kinda losing hope on this relationship thingy. Doesn’t seem to work for me and yet I see wedding photos being circulated, people getting married, couples being couples and I’m just here, still sebatang kara. Tapi aku reda. Some things cannot be forced. Some things are already written in the stars. As long as I still have the ability to smile at the end of a bloody tiring and exhausting day, I think I’m still fine.

Nak tido. Selamat malam.

The world always gets smaller, especially when you grow older. And when you change jobs. There’s bound to be someone who’s a friend of your ex-colleague, or you are a friend to one of the ex-colleague or your ex-colleague is now working with your friend or your colleague is a friend of your friend. So much so that I’m getting very worried about keeping this blog because sometimes I can be too honest for my own good.

So first of all, I won’t be able to bitch about anyone except maybe for myself. No work related issues. I know it gets bottled up that I need to express it through my writings. Writing an entry and then posting it for the view of the whole world versus writing an entry and keeping it private are two different things. In one way or another, the first would make you feel better, the latter gives you a kind of feeling where even though you’re written it but it’s not let out yet. But when you let it out i.e publish it for public to read, you get this little dilemma I’m having here now, if what you’ve written is going to ruin yourself.

You can see that there’s no more photos of myself here. I am just not comfortable..to link my writings with my face to it.

Just..maybe a phase for me…or maybe that’s just me.

Anyway, I’ve been busy with work and spending the little time I have with Iris. Always trying to finish work as fast as I can (and still can’t finish it) to get home to have dinner with her. Tomorrow we’re going to have our little date together, without Pappy around. I even had to ask permission from him if he could excuse us and let us have some private time together. It’s different having your dad and sister around and only having your sister around. Having Pappy around, I have to act a little bit more proper and I cannot say anything that I wish to say. Having just Iris around, the world turns upside down and I like it that way.

I think tomorrow’s the only day we can spend time together alone. After that she’ll be back to Sandakan for a week or so and then when she comes back to KL, my mum will be tagging along. Then we’ll be going for holiday somewhere nice. I don’t want to tell you first because it’s 90% confirmed and I better shut my mouth first just in case the 10% will slip away if I tell you. I have this thing where sometimes if I wish for something and when I’ve revealed it earlier, sometimes it won’t come true. One true life example, going overseas to study but never got the chance to.

I actually don’t really like the way I write lately. Macam tiada isi kandungan. I really need a holiday.

But first, I need a date with my sister tomorrow night. CAN’T WAIT!!! I’ve waited for this for like 365 days.