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I wasn’t feeling particularly good, especially when I’m reminded that I’ll be back to the grind at work on a public holiday. There’s just something about working on holidays that makes me feel so restless. I’m glad it’s over now. Tomorrow is going to be a working day for all. I’m gonna dress up and look good tomorrow. Maybe accessorise it with a hairband. I’m a bit obsessed with hairbands lately.

There’s still one thing that bothers me and each time I want to just move on and forget about it, somebody would come along and ask me about it. I’ll then have to act like I’m okay with it, like it’s nothing… but honestly I just wished people stop asking me. I just hope that answering them would clear the air and I really want to put this behind. I’m tired of the gossips and rumours. Whatever it is, I know this too shall pass. I like these words….this too shall past.

Felt so much better after talking to a friend who has a Donald Duck voice. He was right to say that when someone puts you down, it’s the more you need to live happily, show them you are having a good life. I’m going to do just that.

I’ve always had long hair and never in my life would I think I’d grow to love short hair.

Cut it short last year because I wanted some change…and then I thought it’s time I grow it back again. While I’m half way there, I decided to chop it off again yesterday. This time also because I wanted some change and in a way, it’s a form of rebel and a message I would like to send out to the world, “Don’t mess with Gracie!”

My hairdresser asked me numerous times if I was sure I wanted it to be short. I said yes. She asked if I’m sure I will not regret. I said I’m very sure. She said she was feeling rather sad cutting my hair away.

But I’m feeling happy with the haircut. It’s definitely easier to manage and my head is so light. I don’t have to worry how my hair turns out the next morning because it will look the way it is. I have thick hair so having long hair is a chore, having washed and then to blow dry a thick set of hair is painful.

A bit sad to think that I’ll be working tomorrow and the say after when most people will be enjoying their long weekend. I don’t want to feel sad when I work tomorrow. I know I’m not alone…because I know even some Malays have to work during this big festival of theirs…so..I should make the best of tomorrow and the entire week till I get my days off next week. I can’t wait! 🙂

1. I discovered a shocking and ugly truth. I am still recovering from it because never in a million years I would have thought this could happen….that a friend you take heart to decides to turn his/her back on you. But it’s okay. At least it has opened up my eyes and it’s time that I wake up and it’s time I stop being nice to such people.
2. I just killed a cockroach a few minutes ago. It is huge and my kitchen smells of aerosol spray now.
3. There’s a new little enthusiastic lizard in my house now and it is quite adventurous too. It appears in the kitchen and now in the living room.
4. I just made it looked like my house is a pest farm.
5. I have been very frustrated with my mid-length hair. I am going to chop it off tomorrow.
6. I thank God for showing me a true friend when I just lost one.
7. It’s not how good you are, it’s how good you want to be. Saw this quote written on a sticker at the MPH bookstore cashier.
8. I am working on Hari Raya for the first time in my entire life. I have worked on Deepavali and New Year’s Day so this is new and it’s going to be memorable.
9. Everyone was looking happy and excited about the long holiday but to me, I wasn’t feeling any Raya mood because I told myself not to. I will have my days off soon. Singapore and Hong Kong, I AM COMING!!!
10. I was bored after work and spending time in the bookstore wasn’t enticing to me today. So I thought let’s go get bras. What I like about the bra shop I went to was that the lady would measure you to see if you got the right cup size and asked if you would like her to help check if it fits you perfectly. Then, teaches you how to wear a bra. Trust me, I have not known how to wear a bra correctly. She even touched on the breasts to show me how. -_- But I have learned now.
11. I am going to throw a few bad bras away tomorrow. Not because my breasts have grown tremendously but because it was never the right size to begin with and it’s time that I stop torturing myself with suffocating bras.
12. I have been adding celery as my main ingredient in juicing lately. I’ve never liked celery because of its smell. But after knowing how good celery is…I took the challenge to drink it. And you know what? It’s not too bad and I’m getting used to the taste and smell now.
13. I would like to try boiling porridge with barley and green beans. Saw this recipe from a magazine today. Barley + green bean + sweet potato….sounds good too.
14. Tomorrow is a good day to de-clutter because I can’t afford to sit down and do nothing.
15. It’s 1:19am. BED TIME.

The last time I sat on a trishaw was more than 10 years ago. When I was at Melaka on Sunday for a day trip, my friend and I got on a trishaw and had an enjoyable time. Short but sweet! The uncle who rode the trishaw was so cool and awesome. When we got on his trishaw, he immediately played the song “路边的野花不要採”. He blasted it so loudly on his player that we were creating a scene as he drove us around. There were people/tourists looking at us. Then, there was a guy who actually took picture of us on the trishaw.  -_-|||

So I looked at my friend and said, “OH MY GOD”.

Then, another car who caught sight of us honked too. ahaha.

Uncle drove us and pointed to the important buildings and explained it to us in Mandarin with one word, “Museum, buffalo cart, pirate ship, swimming pool and etc.”

I especially loved when he asked, “你们要不要去ｔｏｉｌｅｔ？＂

He also helped us to capture some photos. People very creative one ok…know how to ask you to pose. He also posed for me when I took this picture of him. So cute!

Walked around Jonker Street and we saw him again after that. This time he played some Chinese kids song because his passenger was a mother and a kid. He certainly knows how to please his passengers.

送你送到小村外
有句话儿要交代
虽然已经是百花开
路边的野花你不要采
记着我的情
记着我的爱
记着有我天天在等待
我在等着你回来
千万不要把我来忘怀

I ought to be sleeping…but I’m so tired, my eyes are shut but I can’t sleep. Didn’t sleep well on Saturday night…or you could say I didn’t sleep at all, combating with bloody mosquitoes, hot weather, and sleeping on a bed which I’m not familiar with. The next day, I was walking under the hot sun and came home with red patches over my body. Went to work today with a very heavy head…the kind that I have to sit very still so that it does not ache because when I bend down, the head hurts. Came home and body is a bit feverish and head is still heavy. Downed a glass of herbal tea and now typing from the bedroom.

Was browsing through blogs from my Google Reader and chanced upon an entry from a favourite photographer of mine (I’ve always dreamed that I can have him as my photographer one day) portraying a couple whom my mum was talking about just yesterday how lovely they are together. The wedding is so beautiful I can’t even describe. Love stories like these always melt my heart.

Anyway, I don’t know when I’ll get married, let alone meet a guy. A friend is being very “helpful” in wanting to help me. Another friend says he’ll be my acting boyfriend till I get someone. And then there’s also this someone who would ask me what time I’ll be leaving and we’ll go down the lift together. It’s just that there is no spark so I don’t know what it is. Then, there’s this someone who asked if I have a DVD player because he would like to lend to me some DVDs. I don’t want to be overly sensitive to think that someone likes me just because he lends me some DVDs out of the blue. Sometimes I don’t know what it is anymore if you get what I mean. So what do I do? I wait and see.

Because I’m afraid. I absolutely know how it feels like to think someone likes you only to find out he doesn’t. He can be so nice to you, he can be doing things so detailed you’d think he’ll only do if you were special to him and only to find out in the end, he’s just not that into you…and you’ll go wondering why in the world people act extremely nice sometimes to give you the wrong idea. I told you I’m afraid and very confused.

Need to try to get some sleep now.

Last night while I was working on the new theme for this blog,  (YES, AGAIN! I don’t know why I’m putting myself through this pain.) the fluorescent light started flickering. This means it’s time to get it changed which isn’t something I like to do. Since there is no one around to help me, I continued tweaking on the new theme under flickering circumstances and vowed to myself that I’ll get it sorted out tomorrow morning. I cannot live with a flickering light because my house is not a disco place.

This morning when I woke up, without even brushing my teeth, I grabbed the ladder which I think is dying to show its true potential after lying against the wall for months. As I climbed up the ladder, I noticed the view up there wasn’t very nice. This is supported by sweaty palms that I developed while I was positioning the ladder to stand at its best with a wardrobe and table in its way. I went up and down twice before I found the right coordinate.

Nevermind that the view up there wasn’t very nice, I spent some time up there figuring how I would balance myself with 2 hands on the fluorescent light and 2 legs on the ladder. So I tried to do it with one hand on the fluorescent light and the other holding on to the ladder. And because this fluorescent light comes with a cover, I had to remove the cover before I can get to the light. The amazing thing was that I managed to remove the cover with just one hand. Ta da!!!

One down.

Suddenly it came to my mind that I used to see Pappy changing the glow starter instead of the whole light. Sometimes the problem lies with the glow starter so I climbed down again and went hunting for a glow starter. I’ve got quite a few and I don’t know which one works and which doesn’t. Took a few to try it out but I still don’t see light.

The bad thing about doing this alone is each time I get something off, I have to climb down, put it down somewhere and make the climb again. And this is the time you wished you had someone to help you, at least to stand at the switch so that I can order that person to switch the light on or off so that I could test if it’s working. This is usually my role when Pappy does the hard work. And the extra service that I’ll provide to Pappy is to hold on to the ladder while he’s on it for extra support, physically and emotionally.

Wokie..so the problem lies with the light. Managed to remove it with just one hand. I’m starting to feel impressed with myself already.

Two down.

The tough part is here now but I shall prevail. I still have sweaty palms and I keep wiping it off with my shirt. I found a way to feel safe up there. I put one leg on a lower rank and one leg on a higher rank of the ladder. It’s safer than putting both legs on the same rank. I don’t know why. And that’s how I did it. It took a few tries to get both side of the light up because the first few tries was either I got the left side up and the right side still down or the right side up and the left side which was up and now is down. Urgh!

It’s time to see how well I’ve scored.

Turned on the lights.

Still nothing.

Went back up and twist twist again.

Still nothing.

Went back up again and twist until I can feel the connection between me and the light that we have the same level of understanding.

Now it works.

I’m a GODDESS.

I thanked Mr.Ladder and complimented on the great performance it showed and put it back where it belongs.

Now that I’m writing this and enjoying the view from below of a glowing light, I just realised I forgot to put on the cover. HAHAHA. damnit.

Happy National Day, Malaysia! 🙂

“I’m calling you because you never call me and so I miss you.” Pappy said to me one day.

I know I’ve been bad. I’ve been calling Mummy everyday but I just don’t always call Pappy.

So I’ve told myself to call Pappy more often.

When I called him yesterday, he said, “What’s up?” like a cool rock star.

I said…”I’m calling you because I miss you.”

That made him laugh.

Then, he asked the weirdest question ever.

“How’s your boyfriend?”

“Pa, I don’t have a boyfriend.”

Actually, he just wanted to ask if I’ve got a boyfriend.

As always, before ending the call, he gave me lots of kisses by making sounds of many kisses. I too made sounds of many kisses to give him lots of kisses.

I passed by a musical instrument store and I always passed by this store. Today it was different because I actually looked into the store and the first thing that I saw was a piano.

Should I or should I not?

I don’t know if I’m being impulsive this time or not so I’m going to give it a few days. I’ll go check out the price of a digital piano since there is no way that I can afford a grand piano or upright piano, which was one I used to have back home…which has then been sold to someone else since no one plays it anymore. After checking out the price, I’ll see if I am still excited about playing again. And of course, it’s the question of space at home. I think a digital piano wouldn’t take up too much space. And then it’s the question of persuading my mum. She will sure be asking me what the hell I’m doing this time around.

The reason why I actually got to learn piano is because of my mum. She would always tell me that she didn’t have the opportunity to learn stuff when she was young. So..with that, she wanted her children to learn everything they can. You name it…I went for art lessons, I went to piano lessons, I went for ballet lesson, I went for swimming lessons, I went for badminton lessons… Of all the things I learnt, ballet was the shortest because the location wasn’t really safe for the then 7-year old me. I had to climb up to the 4th floor and it can get quite dark even on broad daylight so…there goes my ballet classes which lasted probably a week or two.

I had 2 ballet suits and I wore both of them for my swimming lessons. 🙂 Cool or not? Hahaha. I loved my swimming lessons with the 2nd teacher. The 1st teacher was a nightmare.

I hated badminton lessons because the coach wanted to train me up to be so good that she loaded me with unreasonable amount of push-ups, running that I had to do…it was ridiculous. I only wanted to play for fun lor…and I was kinda forced into coming for lessons because…I also don’t know why…please ask my mum. It didn’t last long too.

I enjoyed my piano lessons when I first started but as I went to to sit for piano exams…that was when I really hated it. I’m at Grade 6 but if I were to continue to play…I won’t be going for Grade 7 or 8. I just want to play songs that I like.

Do Re Mi Fa So La Ti Do….So Do!

🙂

I spent the whole afternoon ironing yesterday. I should have done this way much earlier, judging by the amount of clothes piling up on the chair. Among those clothes, some belonged to Pappy and do you know how long is it since Pappy last visited me? VERY LONG. And so it means the clothes have been piling up on the chair for a VERY LONG TIME.

Each time I want to start ironing it, I end after I iron a few pieces of my own clothes because it’s boring or it’s hot or it’s just plain HOT AND BORING.

But you know what? Each time I walk into the room, I get an eyesore. But each time I iron, I get a heartache.

And I thought enough is enough, I shall get rid of eyesore and heartache in one go so I spent the entire Saturday afternoon ironing and you know what? It feels great. Started off a bit draggy and then as I saw the pile starting to disappear, I felt more motivated. To spice things up, I turned on to Super Junior’s “It’s You”. As I was ironing and enjoying the beat to the song, my legs were starting to dance and my body wanted to dance. Ironing was fun.

The chair is now empty without any clothes. With that, I can actually push the chair inwards to go under the table, which then creates more space,which then felt like a part of clutter is gone, which then made me feel happier, lighter. Just awesome!

The cleaning mood kinda got into me yesterday that I went on an express vacuuming and mopping session. The water in the pail after mopping this time around is lighter than the one I had the last round. Water was black. Water was slightly grey this time which means my house is not that dirty as last time. AKU SANGAT SYOK!

Now walking on the tiles make me smile.

Today, I went out dating with a friend. Before we went out, I made both of us fruit juice. Juicing is also a new and latest passion of mine. Been juicing like 3-4 times last week. Becoming an auntie soon because now I know where to get the best supply of crisp, crunchy and juicy green apples. How do you know it’s crunchy? When you slice it into half, it lets out a “crispy” sound. It makes me smile too. I’ve also been shopping for carrots more lately. I’ll never look at carrots the same way anymore. It does wonders.

Watched “Up” today. I loved it! My friend wanted to watch “District 9” but I wasn’t in the mood to watch some ugly aliens on a beautiful Sunday and reading the reviews that it can get quite gory and violent but a good film…still didn’t help. I cannot do too much of gory scenes lah. So we settled for “Up” and I love the soundtrack that I went searching after I came home from the movies…but the song that I want is not included in the soundtrack. 🙁

It’s called “Hanabera” from George Bizet’s “Carmen”. It took me awhile to search for the title…very confusing title. But well, I found another song which is the theme song for the movie. It’s really really nice…called “Married Life”. I even got the piano sheet after much researching on YouTube. I don’t know how to say this but I think YouTube is one of those great things ever created. You can learn about mostly everything here. You can even learn how to play the piano, how to get rid of stains, how to floss your teeth with braces, how to add a gradient in Photoshop, how to dance like Super Junior…

I have a sudden impulse and urge to play the piano again because I want to play the song which I just found the piano sheet to. I was looking at the sheet just now and pressed my fingers on the table like as though I was playing. Silly I know but I don’t have a piano at home now that’s why.

Went to the pasar malam also, got myself a packet of nasi dagang, GREEN APPLES 🙂 , tomatoes. My dear friend got herself 5 apam baliks and then it was watching tv session. Just a simple girl’s day out and I like peaceful Sundays like this with a lovely friend.